Thread: Damn I feel good
08-28-2005, 05:32 PM #1
Damn I feel good
Those that have read my post through out the years probably remember the realy depressing posts I used to post and in what a horrible place I was in mentaly a LONG time.
Now this year slowely the several year long depression has been gradualy lifted from me and these last 3-4 months or so(with a short relaps when my economy went to hell and the rent and shit)I have feelt SO good. Its truly amazing to feel happy again after beeing depressed for so long. I cant even remember last time I feelt as good as I have been feeling lately. If I ever have.
The best thing is that I overcame my depression and anxiety without meds!! I was lucky that I saw what negative downward spirals the people around me fell into because of ssri and anxiety medication and Im glad my only personal experience with such meds was so horrible that I vowed to never touch them again.
I have shared my grief on this board and now I wanted to share my joy To everyone out there that is suffering from depressions just battle it through sooner or later you will beat it. Things always become better in the end
08-28-2005, 05:38 PM #2
Great post bro. I want to congratulate you on your success I myself take SSRI's and have done for many years. In some ways i believe they make you worse. I am slowly coming off mine now.
How did you manage to get through it without the meds bro?
08-28-2005, 05:40 PM #3
glad to hear that youv come through watever was affectin you and your through the otherside!
08-28-2005, 05:41 PM #4
its good to hear johan........
everytime i get into depression i will come and read this post......
or feeling down......
to see there is always way out....... and things will improve.........
08-28-2005, 05:42 PM #5Originally Posted by johan
True Soldier... i hear its the toughest thing
08-28-2005, 05:43 PM #6
08-28-2005, 05:46 PM #7Originally Posted by MatrixGuy
I guess I struggled to lay a positive foundation in my mind. I had a VERY negative thought pattern concering myself and after I had noticed that I struggled all the time to force myself to abolish negative thoughts and nurture a positive mindset. Whenever a negative thougth went through my mind I stoped everything, forced it out of my mind and forced myself to think a good though. Like if I think "damn Im uggly" I would force that away and think "hell Im prettier then brad pit". Thats the basic of it.
Also the book The Art of Happiness: A Handbook for Living: by Dalai Lama, HowardC. Cutler made a tremendous impact on me. It helped me alot with the process above.
What turned me off ssri's was that I was on Remeron(Mirtazapine) for 6 months. It made me into a COMPLETE zombie and took out ALL joy from my life. It lessened the depression but everything else aswell. It lowered my learning ability aswell and made me plain stupid. The scary part was that I didnt notice it myself. By pure luck I ran out and had forgoten to renew the script. So I was of it for a few days and damn was that a WILD ride. My mind was speeding like on meth or something and I thought I was going crasy until I realised it was just my mind getting back to how it should be. After a while when it had settled down I reexperienced the joy life still can have even when depressed and then I promised myself never again any ssri. I still was depressed but rather depressed then a zombie...Everyone around me that takes them seem to fool themself into thinking they help when they realy dont seem to do anything positive at all.
I have not beaten all my demons yet by far but they dont feel like such a heavy burden anymore and they are beeing resolved slowely but surely.
08-28-2005, 05:56 PM #8
"I have not beaten all my demons yet by far but they dont feel like such a heavy burden anymore and they are beeing resolved slowely but surely."
thats good to hear man...
keep been strong ....
08-28-2005, 05:57 PM #9Originally Posted by johan
08-28-2005, 05:58 PM #10Originally Posted by collar
08-28-2005, 06:01 PM #11Originally Posted by MatrixGuy
You will probably feel like shit at first bro but try to ride through it and dont hesitate to pm me if you feel like shit.
Give that book a try aswell it might sound like bullshit new age crap but its a amazing piece of work that realy has the potential to change how you think so that you can achieve more happiness in life!
08-28-2005, 06:07 PM #12
give this a try matrix. During one day just observe your thought patterns. Take notice of how many times you think negative things about yourself or your sorouding. Write it all down if you have to but dont try to change anything just yet. Just take notice of how you think.
Because you are what you think and if you think you are great and happy you will become great and happy.
08-28-2005, 06:11 PM #13Originally Posted by johan
08-28-2005, 06:15 PM #14Originally Posted by MatrixGuy
I hear you on the anxiety. Mine never got quite that bad but during a period I was afraid to buy grocerices just becasue I was afraid to say "hi" to the store clerc for instance. I couldnt make phone calls because I got so bad anxiety that my heart started racing and sweat poured of me. Didnt like beeing around people cause of the social anxiety, just walking around on town made me feel like shit cause I was so tensed up all the time.
What kind of anxiety do you suffer from? Is it social anxiety? Panic attacks?
08-28-2005, 06:20 PM #15Originally Posted by johan
08-28-2005, 06:25 PM #16
Another small advice before I go to beed. If you are like me with the social anxiety you probably have a very hard time looking people in the eyes when walking around. Force yourself to maintain eye contact with EVERYONE. After a while you will then notice people shying away from you and that feels good in some way. To not be the one that turns away. Might sound like a small thing but it makes a world of difference. Then again you might not at all have this particular problem.
Time for me to stop playing AR shrink and go to sleep
08-28-2005, 07:15 PM #17
its my turn now in depression, I lost my job and there is an employment problem in the country now! so I am I spending what is left in my account , thanks god there is my father account, I might sell my mercedes to , sorry for hijacking lol
08-28-2005, 09:02 PM #18
i remember your posts johan. im glad to see your finally getting better. depression is something ive faced, not as bad as some of yall but its really a bad time in ones life.
scarface - smile
There's gon' be some stuff you gon' see
that's gon' make it hard to smile in the future.
But through whatever you see,
through all the rain and the pain,
you gotta keep your sense of humor.
You gotta be able to smile through all this bullshit.
Keep ya head up.Yeah
08-29-2005, 10:10 AM #19Originally Posted by johan
08-29-2005, 10:15 AM #20Originally Posted by kloter1
Originally Posted by MatrixGuy
force yourself! Try it. I know its hard as shit to do and I still cant do it comfortably. But it changes alot just to be able to maintain the eye contact until the other person looks down. Its those small things that add upp and change how you feel.
08-29-2005, 10:23 AM #21
say this a few times in the mirror (I do it seated and flex abit and do some most muscular poses like in my avie...ehehehe I do.. )
EVERYDAY ... IN EVERYWAY... IM GETTING BETTER AND BETTER!!
say it a few times and smile.
feel good about yourself buddy. I know you from this board and I would like to know you in real life. You're a great guy man and I hope and wish nothing but the best for ya bro!!
(call me sexypants)
08-29-2005, 11:12 AM #22
I am happy to hear this johan! I go through small periods of depression as well and I know how bad it sucks, but it sure is great when things clear up. Im happy for ya man.
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