i dont know whats wrong with me but today feels ike any other day. I got up this morning ate meal 1 and went off to my gym to do legs. When my family got up they all wished me a marry x-mas and i didnt feel the joy that i used to. Its been a bad year for me. I have really been working my as off to gain the weight i need for my next show and allso killing myself for school and my job just to get the extra cash to get all the food,sups, AS, ect..to make it even better my G/f broke up with me a little over a month ago and i dont even think she going to call and wish me a merry x-mas... i think i have grow to hate x-mas ... i thanked my family for the gifts they gave me but i told them to save there money and take them back ...i aprshiate them thinking of me but i just dont need anything. i dont know whats wrong with me ..
