I have made up my mind

[DocHoliday]

So I’ve made up my mind.

For those not tuned in. I’m a 20yr old dumbass. I miss a beautiful girl whom I was in love with.

So the story goes: I left her to have fun.

So I write an AR Lounge thread “I Think I Miss Her.” Of course I miss her. If I didn’t I wouldn’t have written the forsaken thread.

I make the call. “Hey *name* what aaaaaaaaaaaaaaare youuuuuuuu doing?” Nonchalant. That’s me.

Blazay blazay. Bamn, she asks “what’s on your mind?” Blunt. Keep in mind, this kind of question, bluntness, is uncharacteristic of her and caught me rather off guard. I tell her. I miss her.

The ball isn’t rolling.

It’s like when you want to make a snowman. You need the snow to start packing. Even in packy snow, the start up ball you’re rolling may crumble. Yeah, this start up ball was crumbling. Mayday!

I keep starting a new ball I hope will not crumble and lead to my base. I finally get there.

I’m going to Las Vegas tomorrow. As I have written another thread in the AR Lounge “Vegas.” The extent to which I allot myself “gratitudinal” services is having my face planted in some titties.

She knows this. I know this. I still don’t want to come back with any STD’s. Or worse….MARRIED.

So it’s a few hours now, before I leave for Vegas. I’m excited. Still, I am not faltered in my decision.

What decision? I’m going to give this girl my all. I’m 20 years old. Why am I doing this? Because I feel it’s right. I more than miss her. I love this broad. HA.

BDTR…if you read this, say something mean, say something about me sounding like a trashy romance novel.

KeyMastur, say how I’m a fool. Say that I’m too young.

Clockworks, say how you understand, how you feel lost.

Groverman, say how you love your wife.
DaBull………say…..man just change your avatar.

956vette say CHEESE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hope all ya’ll smiling, cause I’m a happy FOCKER right now.

Where does your happiness come from?

Doc

[DocHoliday]

I’m going to add a sappy poem. I don’t give a flippin fuk what ya’ll think. I want to post it. So read it if you may…

Shame on you if you laugh…you silly bastards.


About Time For This

So it’s just about time for this
You lie, you laugh, but you reminisce
This was just a matter of fate
You’ll go on, you’ll begin to date
It’s not so hard, it wasn’t so bad.
Still it’s hard for me to feel glad
It’s not that I know how I feel
Though time will help me heal
I’m not all too hurt, or even broken
Just dazed and confused; I’ve fallen.

So it’s just about time for this
I had always prayed for this bliss
When it came, I wasn’t ready
Not to be expected, not so early
I’m better off this way anyway
Life goes on, tomorrow’s another day.
Still I dwell, and still I wonder
Was my head the source of blunder?
I’ve never felt so nervously sick
Anxiety from loosing a single chic

So it’s just about time for this
You finally feel passion in a kiss
Those big brown eyes when she stared
Not knowing how much she really cared
Denying the freedom of my heart
It was bound to end from the start
It’s too late, and yet much too soon
I’m too young, an oafish goon
To say I want her back once more
To say I miss her and how much I adore

So it’s just about time for this
The timing is off, and I’m amiss
About the things I should say
About the certainty of the next day
That’s the problem with seeing
There’s no room left for feeling
Who wants to be left behind?
We all know that life is unkind.
So I use my head once more
And try not to think of her anymore.

[Da Bull]

Your a good guy doc,have fun in vegas and make sure you hit the bunny ranches,that;s a must.Come back with a good attitude and try to get things going again with this girl your crazy about..Have fun bro

DB

[Symian]

Have fun and be careful, bro! And say hello to some of those titties for me, will ya .

Sym

[956Vette]

Your a good guy doc,have fun in vegas and make sure you hit the bunny ranches,that;s a must.Come back with a good attitude and try to get things going again with this girl your crazy about..Have fun bro

DB

Couldnt ahvre saids it bvetter
! too fudkced up now....party balsls!!!@WQ

Id blove you DOc!

[cb25]

Your a good guy doc,have fun in vegas and make sure you hit the bunny ranches,that;s a must.Come back with a good attitude and try to get things going again with this girl your crazy about..Have fun bro

DB

Right on the money. Have a great time...and best of luck with the girl...

[hoss827]

Well hell, I dunno what to say except congrats! Best of luck bro, lemme know how it goes.

--Hoss

[ripsid]

Doc, you worry me with the poem!

Hey you don't even need to go to the ranch in Vegass! Tellin' you bro! It's hot "**** hot!" you will have a f"n badassed time bro!

Also, if it feel right go with it... you dont' want regrets later on inlife!

SID

[groverman1]

Doc is the wrong place to hook up. Are you sure it's not the clomid talking? LOL

[DocHoliday]

Couldnt ahvre saids it bvetter
! too fudkced up now....party balsls!!!@WQ

Id blove you DOc!

Vette….

LMAO….lol. Ahhh man, I know dude, I know. School started back up. LOL!!! Kegger this weekend? “Party balsls!!!@WQ?”


Groverman. It is not the dang clomid. LOL.

HEYYY…I LIKED THE POEM.

Thanks guys.

I’m gonna go nuts in Vegas. Wild out. But stay controlled, if you know what I mean.


Doc

[Full Intensity]

Jeez you keep this mushy stuff up and i just might be forced to ban you lol

[daman1]

Hey Doc, I don't know you personally, but I know what your going through. I hope you have fun and good luck in the future with her and anything you do.

Pat

[DocHoliday]

Jeez you keep this mushy stuff up and i just might be forced to ban you lol

LOL. Ok, alright, I’ve said my mushy peace.

Daman,

You know what’s funny. I think at least. How people view me, what kind of kid I am, on AR is NOT ANYTHING What I’m like in character. Yeah I do say these types of things, yeah I write poems and say sincere and pansy type stuff.

It’s a part of me, but I show this side of me more on AR. The more caring respectful side.

In character, I’m a nut case. I’m wild. Strangest, funnest kid you’d ever meet and then wonder…why am I friends with this nut case? He’s weird.


So I’m talking to her now. I want to talk to her in person, it’s better that way.

Instead of getting all mushy blazay blazay, I’ll just let yall know with a or a

Doc

[Full Intensity]

lmao! Whatever u do the best of luck bro but you're still young so u best still be pimpin till the day your married! You'll regret it afterwards trust me...What they don't know don't hurt them

[mass junkie]

lmao! Whatever u do the best of luck bro but you're still young so u best still be pimpin till the day your married! You'll regret it afterwards trust me...What they don't know don't hurt them

Or just do like I do........Keep on pimpin after your married

[DocHoliday]

I’m suave. It’s all good.

I may play my games, but for now, she’s all I need. I may see how far and if I can bag some chics up, but I’d never pull through.

Doc

[groverman1]

Doc all I have to say is ya got more ballz that most here telling us how ya feel. One day you'll meet someone who will like you poems.

[DocHoliday]

Doc all I have to say is ya got more ballz that most here telling us how ya feel. One day you'll meet someone who will like you poems.

I got HUGE nuts mang!!!!!!!!!!!!


HUGE
I’m back in NY, lets see how things move.

[DocHoliday]

It’s not going so great. I feel ridiculous and trampled.

It’s time for bed.

[BDTR]

You write like a gay prostitute writing out a reciept for a handjob and spooning.

BDTR…if you read this, say something mean, say something about me sounding like a trashy romance novel.

[50%Natural]

very well written bdtr

[DocHoliday]

haha, LMAO

I'm laughing at you making fun of me...all in good fun..

[SpunHoney]

Or just do like I do........Keep on pimpin after your married

~ such a playa ~