This post is mainly just for me to ramble on in. Insomnia sux, i have had it since i was very young and it has grown into a monster. It keeps me awake for months at a time then suddenly disappears as if i never had a problem. Sometimes i go so long without sleep i feel like a machine, i dont feel human anymore. I lie in bed, staring into the darkness wondering why i cant sleep, then the imagination starts to run wild and i start thinking crazy thoughts. I dont know why this is happning and never know when it is gonna start or stop, it just happens. I lay here and think to myself, what the hell can i do to stop this madness from keeping me awake at night, i just wish there was an on/off switch or something. This has got to stop or im gonna go off the deep end one day. Sometimes i feel as if im not even a normal person, maybe im a bit disturbed upstairs or possibly just plain crazy and just dont see it yet. Ohh well guess i'll figure it out eventually, not i just need to find a way to get rid of this crazyness that keeps me awake.....
