OK been off for more than 4 months

I gotta be honest. Since i have been off I have been a lazy peice of shi*. I have hit the gym hard, but the most important thing (diet) has sucked ass.
Here;s ,my deal, I told my wife I would stay off the gear until we had a kid. I also told her I want to wait until 1/05 to start working on a kid..... Soooo, Do I stay off the gear (even though I am a bit depressed, and dying to hit another cycle and have enought on hand for 6 cycles) or do I chill and wait until she is prego???? Help??? I think I know the answer, but I need a bit of help from the bros

Start the biggest mudda farkin cycle your towns ever seen. Is your missus afraid the kid will turn out retarded or some syte if your juiceing when you knock her up?