Totally Chickened on my first Shot!
So after months of planning, and many more months of debate, research, ect... it came time to try and do what i thought i would never do.. a cycle. At first i planned on doing one and only one, thus it was going to be sustanon, dbol, and deca... to put on as much size with one as i could.. and come off with clomid and nolvadex. Well due to impatience and some bad luck financially.. i ended up with all my sustanon, and no cash or patience to get everything else. Aside from that alot of folks suggest test only first cycles so i figured what the hell. I already had some superdrol i purchased and was a week into taking that so i figured i had better start soon for obvious reasons. Long story short, i filled up my 25 gauge 1 incher... and handed it to my buddy who just did a cc of test e with a 23 gauge 1 1/2 right in front of me and laid down on my bed to prepare myself. Quick tidbit of info, im mortified of needles, i pass out during tatoos and ive avoided the dentist for years for one reason and one reason only....its so bad that i could be dying and theres a chance i will accept it and not be poked with anything of the sort! Anyhow, as i laid there with my mp3 player blasting the most hardcore music i had in my ears.. i got to thinking, ill be shooting EoD to get as much as i can out of the sust... 3/4 cc EoD to be exact.. and as hard a time as i was having doing this one. i couldnt handle having it be like that even one more time.... let alone 42 more times..... (12 weeks) Even though they say it gets better.. moving from buttside to shoulder, then other buttside to other shoulder.... ATLEAST the first time in each new area is gonna scare the shit outta me. Then i got my buddy always talking about having a hard time on xxx side cause of nerves and veins, and so im so panic stricken even my feet were sweating. So i tell him to put his hand where he needs to on my ass....and im gonna look straight ahead... and give him the thumbs up when im ready.. so he puts his hand there.. immediately i threaten his life if he comes near my ass with that ****er before im ready....i say go.... then about 1/2 a second later i was like.. no way..screw this!! after that we went to burger king and ate and my heart rate and adrenaline was still racing.. how ridiculous, im a 23 year old man for christ sakes!! Now i know i know, no pain no gain, go big or go home.. ect ect... well shit, im having a really hard time with this lol. Any advice? will a buncha vicotin or something just relax me enough? What a mess!