Depression ON cycle - not post
Hi bro's
I come to you tonight not feeling my usual perky self... and concerned (a little).
Cycle:
1-10 Sust@500
1-10 Deca@400
6-10 Winny
I'm in the middle of week 3 and the weirdest thing happened today. I was hitting my left quad (a new spot I've found with little pain and the pleasure of being able to use two hands). Well, like a numbnut I tensed before stabbing - the result - pain and a little jerk in my leg. Well I did my research before hand, knew this might happen, and just pulled out - relaxed - and did it again this time with success.
The thing that worried me was my emotional reaction to it as the day went on. I kept playing the scene over and over in my head and actually started feeling really REALLY sad. Not to the point of tears but close a few times....like I failed or something - who the hell knows.
Well this isn't like me. Normally I'm on top of shit, can blow mistakes off and learn from em - but this is eating me. So I hit work, finish most of the day then left early cause I just couldn't stay there...felt too sad.
Just got back from the gym and I feel a little better...but WOOOO what a day! Now I've seen a lot of posts for 'post-depression' when running clomid, but I'm only in wk 3!! This should be when I start seeing the Deca kick in. I know that I'm very impatient and have been taking pictures of myself through-out this cycle (it's my first one ever), pasting them next to each other squinting to see some difference in muscle mass... being it's week 3 you can imagine I'm not seeing a whole lot - and that has me a little down.
I don't mean to whine like a sissy - I know some will think, "Damn bro, man up and just take it!" but I'm wondering if others have had this DURING cycle and what to do what to do? Most posts seem to deal with after cycle depression so I hope I'm not cursed for this 1rst time cycle run. I'm hoping it will just pass, maybe a few days like this and then I'll enjoy what most get from Test which is feeling 'very good'... any words of inspiration will help. Maybe I'll do some cardio tonight, that seems to help burn out any weird feelings I have during the day...
Slyp