About 2 years ago I met this girl through a church, she lives in Michigan, I live in Virginia. Well, pretty much i started to like her and for about a year I was depressed and always thinking about her. This was a year ago. Well this past year I have talked to her online and the phone some. But lately shes all I can think about. I am depressed so much and it hurts. I hate to admit it but I want to cry sometimes. The thing is my dad used to take trips up there and it seems that we will no longer be going up there at all. Its not like I wouldnt drive up there myself, but its an akward situation, its hard to explain but I wouldnt be able to go there my self and just visit her. I told her in the past that I liked her, but then later on when i finally got over it I told her that I realized that we lived so far away and that it was stupid to even try anything. I started a test dbol/drol cycle about a month and a half ago, could this be the reason for this? Why am I so depressed, its hard to eat sometimes. Is there anything I could take? Please help.