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Two months out of the gym...i suck
I set foot in the gym today for the first time in about two months. I had made one or two other efforts in the last two months but never really got into the workout. For those that know the story, i hate to beat a dead horse, but this was not be being lazy so much as knowing that my own drive and dedication may have been a catalyst in my girlfriend's bulemia 'returning'. Each time i tried to go into the gym, i literally felt as depressed as I'd ever been in my life...workouts came to be associated with intense feelings of guilt and I'm just now coming to terms with that.
BUt anyway, got into the gym today for a good 'introductory' workout to get back into the swing of things and was able to get thorugh it without any feelings of guilt or shame. This pic is what got me motivated again....here's a pic of my back from july 3rd and one from september 3rd....in only two months it went from nice and defined to sloppy....thank god i was working a manual labor job this summer so i didn't go to hell entirely. THough, i gotta say, it's not as bad as I thought it'd be, though it's still bad. But i'm throwing it up in the public domain for further motivation. It should be obvious which one was from july and which from today.