
Originally Posted by
Money Boss Hustla
I'm a complete mess right now.
I started dating a nice girl 4 weeks ago....things are moving super quick. At least I though she was super nice. I just don't feel that she has been upfront and honest with me about her past. I don't like deception and I'm planning and having a chat with her tonight about my gut feelings. I think she still keeps a few of her flings on the backburner. I'm not sure if she is emotionally secure although she says she is.
On top of that my ex (who I have been friends with) is upset and telling me that she is pissed and hurt.
"It pisses me off that the boyfriend I wanted - the guy who would go out camping, the guy who wanted to see me more than once a week, the guy who really liked my family, etc. is going out with some other chick. Don't get me wrong, you did treat me well but I always wanted so much more in our relationship and now some other chick is getting to enjoy all of that stuff with you."
This totally hurts and I'm a mess over this. The only reason she is my ex was b/c I didn't think she wanted me. Anytime I wanted to get close to her...I felt she always put up a defensive wall and barricaded herself. So I decided that I can't be hurt anymore and I have to move on. Now this comes up!
I'm a mess. Clomid is making things worse...emotionally I feel like a 15 year old school girl.
Sorry for the vent folks.