ok this is something ive been thinking about for a while now. but i think it would help if i give some background details.
ok i lost my V when i was 16 in the back of my GTI with some girl from my HS that i forgot her name after we were done. it wasnt a very great experiance, at the time i thought it was great but really it was pretty dumb and immature. then i didnt have sex again till i started dating my ONE and ONLY girlfriend that ive ever had in life at age 18. we started dating maybe a month after i turned 18, and she was 17, she was my second, and i was her first. we were best friends for a year before we started dating and then dated for 3 years. so i guess you could say we had a 4 year relationship. then around the time i was turning 21 i decided i wanted to be single, cause of how my friends talked about going to the bars and **** like that. it sounded fun so i ditched a good thing for a party life. (just to let you know, i never touched achohol till i was 21) so after i turned 21 i went to the bars and clubs with my friends for a few months and realized it wasnt what i thought and honestly wanted to be back with my former GF. she wasnt having it and ive been single ever since. since that time when we broke up till now ive slept with about 11 girls in 3 years, 13 girls total in my life. out of all of them girls only 2 ive actually had a relationship with, 1 being my GF, and another girl i was seeing for about 2 months. pretty much they were either one night stands or sex with girls i was friends with but nothing more, we just stayed friends cause the sex was good but there was no emotional bond what so ever.
well last friday night i went out with this 19 year old girl that i know that is just a booty call. pretty much she calls me when she's horny and wants me to put the smack down. we went to a strip club cause she likes girls also, and then came back to my place for some sex. i honestly could give a **** about this girl at all. and sometimes dont even want to bang her, it just feels like a big chore. she's hot and all but i just dont feel anything for her
so after all of these chicks ive decided im sick of just banging a chick and thats it. its not that im not a sexual person, me and my ex had sex twice a day for the 3 years we were together, thats alot of sex. i watch porn all the time. and think about sex all the time, but the thing is im tired of just doing it with chicks i dont give a **** about. i know i know this may sound gay but i really would rather have a relationship, not just some random sex. i figured i can do this, i dont think it will be that hard actually, ill just bury myself in the gym and my businesses.
id figured id post my thoughts and see what you guys think or if anyone else has ever felt this way. im not having sex again till i have a serious GF!