
Originally Posted by
FeldMarshellPotter
The first time I took Aderall, it only took 2-3 hours to clear the overwhelming volume of thoughts floating through my overburdend mind. I expected it to take weeks to kick in, but now I already feel about 50% more at peace with myself and I understand clearly now that yes, my life right now completely sucks, but most of that is my fault. I used to have an outright negative impression of everyone because I couldn't "read" people socially and pick up on social cues, so I relied on my negative perception to guide me in life. The reason I was negative was that I couldn't concentrate on improving my present situation to have a better future because I was caught up in the present...I couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel; only the immediate darkness. In school I avoided people completely and I never went to dances, or even my high school prom. Girls would sometimes flirt with me and talk to me, but I hated myself and didn't think anyone could possibly have any interest in me. Therefore at 20, I became lonely, depressed, and desperate for sex and it was apparent to everyone I met. I would become obsessive with girls and get angry and possesive when I met any resistance, which was frequently...I tried too hard, I pushed my friends away with my attitude and lost out on the pivotal years of my life...my plan now is to get a car, make some true, lifelong friends, and, of course, find a girlfriend. I hope I can make a better life for myself....