i hate to air out my dirty laundry here, but i am feeling very down. today my girlfriend went into my email,and saw that i was talking dirty to a girl i hooked up with years ago. iknow it doesn't make sense and i am not sure how it even started,but all it was,was just talk, i never hooked up with her, i never did anything with her. now she is so upset, she came over and cleared all of her things out of my house. i feel SO bad, i never wanted to lose her, we were going to get engaged sometime this year, and now i lost it all.a bad judgement. i never felt so horrible in my life and don't know what to do. i really love her more than life, and now it feels if i lost it all. i don't know what to do, i feel twisted like a pretzel