Aright. Its the 4th of July and like most normal 18 year olds home from their first year of college I should be drikning coronas eating hamburgers and hotdogs (WITH THE BUN!) and just all out enjoying myself. But I cant. Why cant I you might ask?! Becuase Ill wake up tommrow and be 8 pounds heavier and it will take my disgusting body with the shitty genetics I have about 2 weeks just to get to the point I am right now typing this up to you. Its so irritating and annoying. Dont get me wrong. I love lifting, getting stronger but I am so ****en careful with everything I eat, drink, consume and the progress just isnt worth it, it seems. I mean im 5'11 175 been cutting for eternity it seems and yeah I made progress down from 189 but I still have this fat around my gut, tits when nips arent hard and unflexed and its just miserable when 90 percent of my peers can do what they want drink their beer, eat the pizza and remain in good shape and I ****en cant. I have to do 400 percent more than anyone else but achieve only 30 percent of the results with the half ass they put into it. At times I wish I could jsut not be all natty take some gear and get hard, not remain soft have that slice of pizza or subway at 4 in the morning. Im going for bloodwork next week becuase Im convinced there is something wrong with my body whether it be my thyroid estrogen levels or just overall production of testosterone. I just feel like for the weight I put up and the way I eat and run my body doesnt sport that look.