... with a twist
here is the situation, I knew my wife for almost 20 years, most of that time spent being very good friends... friendship was tough because I always wanted more but would resign myself to the fact that friends would be all we ever amount to... because of this we would have this odd friendship... we would literaly spend a week straight hanging out then I would go scarce for over a month or more because of my desires for her would make it hard to stay at a friendship level... this went on for years (more on this later)... about ten years ago we effectively "ended" our friendship with a kiss... this should of made me the happiest guy in the world and in part it did, unfortunately it came at a bad time, she was in a BAD spot in her life which made me question whether her feelings for me were true or was this new found relationship out of convenice... she knew I was a good guy and safe... this nagged at me for a couple of years... during that time of questioning her motives I wasn't exactly faithful, in fact I carried on a relationship on the side for almost two years, not to mention a one night stand... certain events transpired that removed all doubt from my mind that what she felt for me was purely love and not just neediness... when I realized this I immediately ended all other ties with anyone else because in fairness I really wanted to be with my now wife and to know without a doubt she wanted me was a dream come true, as I said, you would have to know the situation to understand why I questioned it for so long... Once I am all in, I am not a cheater... recently we have been on this wonderful path of rediscovery (kids, house, jobs, life all get in the way sometimes and allows you to lose focus) Not that we ever fought before but we are once again in this perfect bliss and after 20 years and 10 year relationship I have once again learned things about my wife that are incredable and amazing... she truly is all I ever wanted... anyway as stated earlier, I crushed on her forever, come to find out she did the same and has real proof to confirm it so it seems all like that fairy tale... here is the thing, though we have talked about our beginning (relationship-wise) and she knows my doubts about her motives initially, she knows nothing about the cheating I did... I married her 6 years ago and it's been 7+ years since any of that went on... I highly doubt she would ever find out based on the facts that I employ CYA (cover your ass) and so much time has passed... here is the question, knowing that this will probably never surface would you risk what you have now on diggin up a skeleton or allow it to stay buried in the past