im ok. life hit me hard the other day.. anyway im in the hospital on my labtop...i think i owe you all an explenation..
well my family went on a vacation i was going to go but couldent because of work..they got into a big car accident and my mother, and two brothers died..icant help but think its my falt..i know i could of done nothing. so im told but if i went with them maybe somthing..i have no buddy left no friends / family..it was just so hard to deal with. you guys are all that i have left...it strange to think the only people i know, really i dont even know you..but after i got the news i just wanted to die. well i took pills and alchol..well i thought i died because i know this is going to sound stupid but i belive that i saw my family..they told me to live and i dont know how but the doctor to me when i came to that i called the ambulance..i just dont know what to do...i feel like this is the end for me..but i want to live know that i have a secound chance...
for all the things i have said in my old threads im sorry for lying to all of you i hope i can still be an active memver of this fourm.
thanks all you guys/girls for the help. if i need to talk this is the place.
thanks juice