My heart is broken...

[ThePump]

hey guys... i just felt like i needed to let somebody know that my heart is broken. over the past year i've had 5 very close ppl to me die. my grandmother from cancer, my friend from over dose, my other friend from over dose, another friend from cancer after fighting it for 7 years, and just now one of my friends 12 year old son hung himself last night. i've tried to num myself to all of this but it just completely breaks my heart. i've never been good at expressing myself but now it's just like i'm totally speechless. i'm done crying, but yet at the same time i feel bad because i feel that i am not showing enough sorrow. but, inside i'm just crushed. i dunno, just thought i would share this. =(

[ThePump]

anything i can do to get some aggresion out? i mean i just got finished working out and tonight i have to work. i'm a bouncer... so maybe i'll take it out on some dumbass. shit i don't know... my mind is just so out of wack right now.

[stuball]

anything i can do to get some aggresion out? i mean i just got finished working out and tonight i have to work. i'm a bouncer... so maybe i'll take it out on some dumbass. shit i don't know... my mind is just so out of wack right now.

Kickin someones ass aint the answer, you need to talk to someone, family, friends, us whoever... Life can be a real motherfvcker sometimes... Good luck bro..

[ThePump]

Kickin someones ass aint the answer, you need to talk to someone, family, friends, us whoever... Life can be a real motherfvcker sometimes... Good luck bro..

yeah i realize that now... i need to do something constructive with all this pent up rage. i'm giong to try and better myself even more then i have been doing in the past 6 months. i got so depressed that i quite working for about 7 months and just drinking my sorrows away literally every night. i've changed alot of my actions over the past year here lately and made a decision to try and be the best person i can be and to live my life to the fullest. it just hurts my feelings so much, that's all. and i find myself questioning so much. and i think i was questioning so much because i wasn't happy with the way i myself was living my life. i'm still not... but i'm trying to take steps in the right direction. we'll see how it goes

[big L 17]

i woudl try conuseling.

[armbar83]

i woudl try conuseling.

ditto

[Ufa]

Sorry for your loss. Don't make your self a casuality with agression.
It must be extremely painful. Time to be with family.

[ThePump]

counceling cost money though... and i'm a broke ass college student. =\... i feel bad talking to my mom about stuff or my sister cause i don't want to bring there mood down too. so i just keep it inside and that's bout it.

[Timm1704]

counceling cost money though... and i'm a broke ass college student. =\... i feel bad talking to my mom about stuff or my sister cause i don't want to bring there mood down too. so i just keep it inside and that's bout it.

you have no friends who you can talk to? its a shit situation to be in mate, but many people go through very similar things

[chest6]

you have no friends who you can talk to? its a shit situation to be in mate, but many people go through very similar things

Yep. Try a few close friends. I have a few I always come to with my problems and they come to me with theirs as well. Seems to work..

[ThePump]

yeah i do... but he lives pretty far away now and it was his cousin that hung himself. =\ and i'm not very close with my roomates that i live with now.

[donniebrasco]

im sure your college / uni / school will offer some kind of bereavement counseling or such.

i dont mean to sound like an ass but it appears that you know a lot of selfish, shallow depressed people. either that or druggies.

i know how shitty cancer is, had a few family members die from that.

get some help, it doesnt help much with the pain, but at least you get to talk to someone and dont depress or burden other people who are also dealing with it.

[king6]

yeah i do... but he lives pretty far away now and it was his cousin that hung himself. =\ and i'm not very close with my roomates that i live with now.

How about talking to your g/f.

[lucabratzi]

dam bro..sorry to here about all this...must be really hard...but there's always someone to talk to...dont hold it in that wont help anyone but also dont take it out and beat up people...try to use it as motovation to do great things with your life...u have your life now so be the best at whatever u like to do...thats really the only advice i can give...but u should really talk to someone about it cause if u bottle it up it will **** with u until u do let it out...but until u do u really with be battling yourself in your head...goodluck bro..

[Kale]

hey guys... i just felt like i needed to let somebody know that my heart is broken. over the past year i've had 5 very close ppl to me die. my grandmother from cancer, my friend from over dose, my other friend from over dose, another friend from cancer after fighting it for 7 years, and just now one of my friends 12 year old son hung himself last night. i've tried to num myself to all of this but it just completely breaks my heart. i've never been good at expressing myself but now it's just like i'm totally speechless. i'm done crying, but yet at the same time i feel bad because i feel that i am not showing enough sorrow. but, inside i'm just crushed. i dunno, just thought i would share this. =(

OMG !!! Man I dont know what to say. I could not cope if I lost my son like that, he is 14 and my whole life. I lost my daughter to cancer when she was just three and a half so I have some idea what you are going through. Did the boy have emotional problems that people were aware of ?

[ronan the barbarian]

i know a lot of you will flame me,but here goes.
last year one of my very closest friends louis was murdered,my best friends girlfriend killed herself,my mate paul hanged himself outside his parents house and in december my girlfriends brother martin was killed(the driver)in a high speed crash killing 3 others.
having irish blood(and all my friends)the only answer i know is to drink very heavily,talk about them,cry,laugh,and take your aggression out on the first person you think will beat you in a fight.makes no sense i know.
sounds very childish and i am very sorry.but thats what iv seen every member of my family and friends family do since i was a child.
and a weekend or a wake is usually enough time to rid the anger.

im not even gonna go into how many people iv lost to cancer,to start 4 cousins and had it very very bad myself.read my threads.

but i am so sorry to here your down,sounds like you need good friends,keep your head up.

[clomid222]

Go to your general practicioner and see if they can recommend a doctor which can prescribe some prescription anti-depression like xanax which can definitely help with depression.


Read the board rules!!!

[clomid222]

It's really hard for people like me to cope with loss of a loved one as well. I don't have strong religious beliefs or any ideas about what happens to people once they die. Therefore it makes it difficult to cope.

Read the board rules!!!

[STYLE74]

hey guys... i just felt like i needed to let somebody know that my heart is broken. over the past year i've had 5 very close ppl to me die. my grandmother from cancer, my friend from over dose, my other friend from over dose, another friend from cancer after fighting it for 7 years, and just now one of my friends 12 year old son hung himself last night. i've tried to num myself to all of this but it just completely breaks my heart. i've never been good at expressing myself but now it's just like i'm totally speechless. i'm done crying, but yet at the same time i feel bad because i feel that i am not showing enough sorrow. but, inside i'm just crushed. i dunno, just thought i would share this. =(

Sorry to hear all this terrible news man. Keep your head up bro, we all go through rough times.

[lucabratzi]

Go to your general practicioner and see if they can recommend a doctor which can prescribe some prescription anti-depression like xanax which can definitely help with depression.


Read the board rules!!!

xanax is not an anti depresant...

[BigRandy]

i feel bad talking to my mom about stuff or my sister cause i don't want to bring there mood down too. so i just keep it inside and that's bout it.

bro...ive experienced similar losses and holding it in is not the way. talk to your family and be there and support one another

[aadrenaline]

yo man hang in there i know how it is..i lost 3 of my friends..1 was my best friend in the world another was a close friend..in 3 months time this year..bro its ****ing ruff. hang in there we're all here for you!

[ThePump]

hey guys thanks so much. i rly appreciate it. today i feel much better and decided that i'm going to try my hardest to live my life as my loved ones would want me to. i never rly thought about other ppl going through the same stuff, i was being selfish about it. but thanx again guys... i'll come to you guys wheni need to talk to somebody.

[marcus300]

Thats a very sad story and i hope you remain strong and take each day as it comes, keep strong and in time i hope you start to feel better about life.

[Ufa]

I thing that any General Practioner would perscribe something to relax
your nerves.

[paulzane]

Sorry to hear of your troubles. The guys on here will always be able to listen and help you!!

[Schmidty]

Best of luck and sorry for your losses.

[fenceguy]

sorry for you losses, thats a lot for one person to carry. just like everyone else, talk to your family, your friends, there are always support groups which can be very therapeutic, becuase you are basicly anonomys. you can go in an open up and everyone there is in the same boat as you. no one judges, just supports. most colleges have a campus chaplain. usually non denominational. they can be great resources.

[ThePump]

thanx everybody... the calling hours are on sunday. it's going to be tough to go through that. =\