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**The Deuce** · 07-06-2009, 09:40 AM

A little bit snappy/distant/different its because my BEST FRIEND passed away on July 3rd after a 23 year long battle with Cystic Fibrosis. He was 28. He was diagnosed at the age of 5 and given a 5 year time frame to live. Woody defied all and fought through it and did it with a smile on his face. When you met him you would never be able to tell he had a disease that would eventually kill him. He had been on a LUNG TRANSPLANT list since he was diagnosed but his card was never pulled. It didn't help that he had the rarest blood type there is.

Justin lived everyday to his fullest, He always made sure everyone else was happy around him and he carried himself well. He was feared by some but just about LOVED by all. I AM DEVASTATED by the Loss... The last time I saw him he gave me a hug when he was leaving and said Deuce I am Ready. And me being naive had no clue what he was referring to. Now of course I do. He knew he was dying. He knew his time was almost up.

The fact of life remains is that we will all die one day, but he was too young... He wasn't scared to die.. but either way you slice, he is gone.. never coming back, and we are all left here devastated...

Anyways I just wanted to vent... and let everyone know why I may be acting differently... so, like I said, nothing anyone can do.. but this is like my second family... and that is why I am sharing this with you guys cause if anything I know you guys would at least appreciate what i am going through...

RIP JUSTIN "WOODY" WOODBURY

Justin C. Woodbury, 28 GORHAM - Justin C. Woodbury, 28, of Garden Avenue, died Friday July 3, in a Portland hospital, after a lifelong illness of Cystic Fibrosis. He was born in Portland the son of Donald and Debora Meehan Woodbury. He was raised, educated and resided in Gorham all of his life. He had been employed by Hannaford in Gorham and by Netcycle in Portland, until he became too ill to work. Justin enjoyed playing basketball, when he could, listening to music and cruising in his car, he especially liked Baxter Boulevard. Justin enjoyed his stays at Maine Medical Center, P3D, with all of his nurse's, he called it his 5 star motel. He is survived by his parents Donald and Deb of Gorham; his maternal grandfather, Paul and wife Doris Meehan of Scarborough; many aunts, uncles and cousins. Visiting hours will be held Monday from 6 to 8 p.m. at the Blais & Hay Funeral Home 35 Church St. Westbrook. Funeral Services will take place at the Funeral Home on Tuesday at 10:00 a.m.

REST IN PEACE BROTHA !!!

**calgarian** · 07-06-2009, 09:42 AM

my condolences!!!!

**seriousmass** · 07-06-2009, 09:52 AM

Condolences my bro.

I had a cousin diagnosed at age two with Cystic Fibrosis... he died when he was 16, because his lungs filled with blood. No one should EVER have to experience this terrible, evil disease. It takes life away from the most innocent children, and leaves them to die in the most painful ways possible - It's truly unbearable to watch.

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss.

***El Diablo*** · 07-06-2009, 09:59 AM

Sorry to hear....All condolences

**sigman roid** · 07-06-2009, 10:16 AM

My thoughts and condolences are with you deuce.

**jamyjamjr** · 07-06-2009, 10:24 AM

i deal with the sick and the elderly all day man.. too many people die young.. my condolences

**Dancer** · 07-06-2009, 10:26 AM

R.i.p.

**Mooseman33** · 07-06-2009, 10:42 AM

to young bro......
My thoughts and prayers are with yourself and his family...
R.I.P

***T-MOS*** · 07-06-2009, 11:35 AM

Sorry for your loss

**CBGB** · 07-06-2009, 11:58 AM

My thoughts are with you, this is no way to lose a friend!

**Immortal Soldier** · 07-06-2009, 12:19 PM

R.i.p.

**ghettoboyd** · 07-06-2009, 12:46 PM

sorry for your loss bro....he lives on in spirit and in the hearts of those who loved him.

**Swifto** · 07-06-2009, 12:46 PM

My thoughts are with you too.

RIP

**The Deuce** · 07-06-2009, 12:51 PM

Thank you all.. It is Greatly appreciated and I am sure Woody is looking down now and thanking you ALL too... The World lost a good Man.

Well I am off to the gym to see if I can't take some aaggression and anger from the hurt out there... the only thing that sucks is that it is ARMS day... ugh.. lol.. I hate ARMS day..

**scerpico22** · 07-06-2009, 12:52 PM

sorry for your lose bro.

R.I.P

***RAGE*** · 07-06-2009, 04:39 PM

R.I.P

prayers go out to his family..

sorry for your lost bro

**The Deuce** · 07-06-2009, 06:14 PM

He looked soooo Peaceful Bros... It was so hard to see him lying there.. I spoke to his Dad and he went very very peacefully.. Tomorrow is gonna be the hardest part.. at least I know I'll get to see him one last time ...

**ni4ni** · 07-06-2009, 06:16 PM

R.i.p

**eatrainrest** · 07-06-2009, 07:54 PM

R i p

**DSM4Life** · 07-06-2009, 07:56 PM

**jbm** · 07-06-2009, 07:59 PM

condolences! brother...

**Free Will** · 07-06-2009, 08:00 PM

May he be pushing weights up in heaven and looking over you in the future

RIP ...sorry for your loss bro

**Iron_Pig** · 07-06-2009, 08:02 PM

**The Deuce** · 07-06-2009, 08:58 PM

Thank you so much guys, ya know, I feel closer to you than anyone else. This right here is what is holding me together, You guys dont even know me personally but the show of respect is unbelievable. Thank you so much. Tomorrow as hard as it is going to be to say my final goodbyes to my best friend..I guess I'll be seeing him, at the end of the road.. end of the road i'll see him there.. i know it aint easy letting anyone go... but
I know no matter what all of you will be here to support me.. until God says it's time for me to come home.

Thanks again my friends and I know he is up there somewhere also saying thank you for all the kind words also...

**KatsMeow** · 07-06-2009, 09:03 PM

I'm sorry for your loss Duece, I work for Hospice and have to see young people taken too early all the time, it never gets easy and you never take a day for granted. I'm glad that you can now understand that he was ready, he wasn't afraid to let go and that he would no longer have to suffer from this disease.

Remember him for how he lived not how he died. Tomorrow will be filled with emotion but attempt to celebrate the memories he left you with.

Much love,
Kat

**CHAP** · 07-06-2009, 09:07 PM

Keep your head up brother.

**zimmy** · 07-07-2009, 11:05 AM

wow, that's tough man. From what I know about that disease...your lungs feel like they are on fire sided with not getting enough air for every second of your life. If he could go through that and be in good spirits, he definately was a positive spirit. I am sure he is in a better , pain free place. My condolences.

**hrbp9501** · 07-07-2009, 08:45 PM

I'm sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and his family. I know how your feeling I lost a dear friend as well. Just remember he lives on in your heart and thru memories and he is not suffering anymore.

R.I.P

**The Deuce** · 07-08-2009, 08:12 PM

Thank you all !! I will not lie, I am a complete wreck.. I havent slept for sh1t... everytime I close my eyes, i see him.. lying in that casket... and when I do fall asleep for the hour here the hour there its nightmare after nightmare that snaps me awake..

Its brutal.. I force myself to eat only because i know if I dont my muscle will disappear on me.. well obviously not overnight but i know that I need to keep my nutrition up above anything else...

I do have to say I slipped and ate a quart of ICE CREAM.. NON-FAT but a quart of it nonetheless.. lol.. hahaha havent done that in a long time, and at the Celebration of life I might have devoured about 400 grams of sugar filled carbs in muffins, reese's cups, cakes, candy, and other sugar filled odds and ends but... I think that for this instance I was allowed to...

I did manage to go to the gym after the funeral yesterday.. but today was worse than yesterday, i dont know if it is because i knew today when i awoke from my night of fit fulled sleep that it was the first day since Woody was born that his body was no longer on the EARTH and that his body was and is now a pile of ashes in an Urn. But that was his wishes... He wanted to be home.. he wanted to be cremated and brought home to his bedroom... I dont blame him at all.. I would wanna be at home too I guess.. Its just soooo hard knowing he just doesn't exist anymore other than in SPIRIT and in MEMORY..

They had to literally pull me from the funeral home... I couldn't let go.. I didn't want to... This is the FIRST time I have ever lost anyone that close to me.. yeah I have had friends die.. yah I have had family die.. I have been to over 50 funerals in my life but it is DIFFERENT.. when it is YOUR BEST FRIEND.. YOUR BOY... YOUR MAIN MAN... YOUR HOMIE.. YOUR DUDE... Im a man and Lord knows I cry but even as I write this the tears are just pouring out of me.. AND i know he is up there saying "TOUGHEN UP YOU FVCKIN PANSY PU$$Y !!" and Im tryin' God I am trying... I guess this is just my way of venting.. my way of being able to release all my thoughts out... to people who wont judge me... to people who are unbiased and who respect me.. and people who I respect Greatly.. GRANT IT WE ARE AN ONLINE COMMUNITY but I consider you all FRIENDS... I talk to you guys DAILY.. I dont even talk to my personal friends DAILY... I feel like I have a closer bond with all of you then the people I am acquainted with in my life.. I don't have a lot of friends because of my chosen lifestyle.. because I dedicate my life to fitness and health and people dont understand why I eat 6 times a day, and why I do what I do... but all of YOU do !! That is why I believe I am closer to you guys and can share this with you... I obviously know that if I needed you to come fix my flat tire you couldn't.. if I needed you to help me move a refrigerator you couldn't... it's a different degree of friendship.. 99 percent of you don't even live within the same state as me.. But to me I respect you all the same.. and I hope you all feel the same way about me...

Yesterday is gone and today is a new day and soon today will be gone and become yesterday and tomorrow will be the new today...

Yesterday after the funeral we all got together for a get together and all wrote messages to our beloved Woody on Balloons and sent them on up to him... Here is a picture of that... It brings a smile to my face everytime I look at it.. to know that he was that loved that all 100 or so of us each sent our own personal messages and Love to him... and sent it on up...

I know I will get over this... I am going to schedule an appointment with a grief counselor because Lord knows at this point I need one.. but at least I know when I need to vent or speak to someone all it is a click away. THANK YOU ALL FOR BEING THERE AND SUPPORTING ME THROUGH THIS HORRIBLE HORRIBLE TIME.. YOU HAVE NO CLUE HOW MUCH IT TRULY MEANS TO ME !!

RIP BRO.. I LOVE YA !!

-The Deuce

**hrbp9501** · 07-09-2009, 07:26 AM

I feel so bad for you, I wish I could reach thru my monitor and give you a big hug and make it all go away. I think your making the right move by seeing someone.
YOU are loved here by many I can see that, I'm new but, I'm here to help get you thru this.
Your in my thoughts and prayers.