marcus300 interviews bjpennnn

marcus300: Where abouts do you live and have you always lived there?
bjpennnn: I live in Huntington Beach CA. “Surf City USA”. I was born and raised in south Orange County and grew up at the beach.

marcus300: What are your current stats?
bjpennnn: 5-6 167 bf 10% I am not proud of them at the moment, but I just got over being sick for about ten weeks and was only in the gym about four times. Been hitting it hard since and I am now working with a coach.

marcus300: How old are you?
bjpennnn:I am 24 almost 25

marcus300: What do you do for a living?
bjpennnn: I am a full time student and work as a Chemical Dependancy Counselor at a drug and alcohol rehab center.

marcus300: What would be your ideal job?
bjpennnn:Well I would love to have a show like love line that we have here in the United States. Dr. Drew does a great job. I would try to incorporate some drug callers info also so, answering questions regarding withdrawal, were to get help, effects on the body things of that nature.Also i have met some very very interesting people in my life. I would definitely have them on the show to share their stories.I would also like to get paid for lifting weights, maybe a fitness model or something of that type.

marcus300: Are you married and do you have any children?
bjpennnn: No, I am not married. I am looking for the creme de la creme, I am not looking to settle on just some girl. I feel like I have dated a lot of eight and nines but that was only in looks. If I had to judge them on motivation/education/honesty they would be ones. I want the whole package now.

marcus300: Do you have a big family?
bjpennnn: I have the greatest family on earth. My parents are both still married to each other which is very rare in todays society. I have one younger sister who is an insane athlete and in my eyes who ever marries her is the luckiest man on earth. I literally owe my family my life. We are a unit. I have learned that when everything is said and done if no one is there for you your family will always be. So instead of putting my friends before them now, I put my family before all.

marcus300: Have you ever done any rec drugs, if so how as this effect you over the years?
bjpennn: I have used cocaine, weed, xtc, ketamine, GHB, heroin, speed, LSD, mushrooms, valume/norcos/oxycotton/xanax virtually everything there is in the form of a drug addict not a recreational user. I wish I could be a recreational user but I am not wired that way. I have been clean from all drugs since September 9, 2008.

marcus300: OMFG you have used some drugs in your life time, why would you use all those and are you on medication to help with your withdrawal symptoms?
bjpennnn: I used them for different reasons at different times. When I was young I fractured three of my vertebrae. I was rushed to the emergency room started convulsing and could not feel me legs for about an hour. When I could feel, I was in an insane amount of pain. They offered me something for my pain, and at that point I became a lover of drugs. I got a fat shot of morphine into my right quad, i remember it like it just happened (goosebumps). That moment changed my life.

I went to school (7th grade) the next week and all the girls rushed up to me. They had gotten word of mouth what happened to me and had been concerned. Normally I may have been a little intimidated, but I had taken some of my vicodin and i was high. I felt like a ****en champ, smooth as silk. I felt like i had taken “I am cool” pills, I knew exactly what to say, how to act without feeling nervous while feeling confident at the same time. I learned something at that moment. Quickly i started a habit that little did i know would mess me up for over ten years down the road. Nothing in my eyes was better then getting high/hammered all night with a girl dancing and getting down all night. I had the money I made myself feel like a movie star. I did no take any medication coming off anything. You can only die from stopping cold turkey from two things after long periods of use. That is benzodiazepines (valume, xanax) and alcohol.

marcus300: Which of the above drugs you have use would you say is the most addictive?
bjpennnn: Heroin hands down. But the crazy thing is for me, now that I have been clean for so long i never think about shooting up anymore. I only ever crave smoking a fatty at the beach when its nice out. I loved my weed and reggae/the doors/sublime.

marcus300: What advice would you give someone who wants to try a few Rec drugs?
bjpennnn: Look at your family history, if you have a few alcoholics/drug addicts in the family stay away. Life is better and more simpler without drugs/booze. Surround yourself with winners.

marcus300: I believe you have been in trouble with the Law, have you done any time in prison and what was it for?
bjpennnn: I have spent 9 months in jail, 6 months in the juvenile detention center, 90 days house arrest and I was put on gang terms at the age on 14. Possession with intent to sell narcotics/possession of a controlled substance/Gang violence/Possess/Manufacture/Sell Deadly Weapon.

marcus300: If you was face to face with your victims of your crime's, what would you say and how would you explain yourself?
bjpennnn:I would first and foremost ask for forgiveness. If they did not accept it would not matter to me. I would tell them that I am going to give back to the community that I took so much from and I will doing this for the rest of my life.

marcus300: The offenses you committed were they under the influnces and were they to feed your habits at the time?
bjpennnn:HAHAHA well this is an amazing question, of course i was high every time. Who would of thought? Some of the dealing was to feed my habits or my ego dunno...

marcus300: Where in the world have you travelled to and where would you most like to visit?
bjpennn: I have been to New York, Alaska, Scotland, England, Italy, Amsterdam, the Bahamas, France and some others. I would love to go to Thailand/Costa Rica and Brazil.

marcus300: Who would you most like to meet on AR?
bjpennnn:T-mos, I was on the board for a while and then left and when I came back he was gone. I would have a list of questions for him regarding life after death. And have some requests for him to say hi to a few of my brothers up there. Then I could report back to everyone.

marcus300: When did you first start bodybuilding and what experience do you have with AAS?
bjpennnn: I started at 12 I was waking up everyday before school started and hitting the weight room with my dad five days a week. I started using creatine and taking protein powder. I was invited to become a part of the Olympic Development Program for Soccer in the United States. That continued for a few years, until i decided to start being a retard. I have been lifting on and off since then. When i would actually be sober and clean I would get into the whole routine. Then obviously when i would be using I would not be lifting.

I started using steroids at the age of 19. I used everything under the son all at once including pro hormones. I got rite below 200 pounds needed 2 gyno surgeries i was in stage 4 hypertension in blood pressure, had insanely elevated liver enzymes, and sent me into a nice little depression because of the lack of knowledge of pct.

marcus300: What have been your most productive cycles?
bjpennn: Less is more. I dont know if someone would say this is less but, Prop 100mg eod, and Mast 150mg eod yielded me the greatest results that i felt personally. I felt strong and agile. I will never run another cycle without the use of both those compounds.

marcus300: What kind of diet to do follow?
bjpennn:Well to be exact.Diet: HIgh Protein, Low Fat, Moderate carbs
Sodium is fine and not to worry about, add seasonings or some light sauce
all measurements are to be done after cooking. Seasonings are fine.. diet soda is fine, coffee is fine...
Meal1: 11 egg whites and 1 whole egg along ( add catsup or some hot sauce for taste) or instead of the egg whites have....2 scoops of whey protein in water( aim for 45 grams of protein) 2 packs of low sugar flavored oats ( maple and brown sugar is great) or 1 cup of cooked oats( 80grams dry) shooting for 50 grams of carbs this meal. Meal 2&3 protein shake in water( 50 grams protein) along with 4 oz brown rice or 7 oz of lean meat( chicken breast, turkey breast) along with 4 oz of brown rice or potato.Meal 4: 8 oz of lean meat of your choice and 1 cup mixed green veggies of choice.Meal 5: 8 oz of lean steak 6 oz baked potato or 4 oz of white or brown rice, along with 1 cup mixed green veggies of choice.

marcus300: What advice would you give newbies starting out in the world of bodybuilding?
bjpennnn: diet and diet. The one thing I did learn when i was 19 is that you have to eat to grow. If you want to be 205 and your 175 then you need to eat like your 225. hahaha confusing but true. I kept a jar of peanut butter in my car with a spoon rubber banned around it when i was trying to bulk. Every time i got in and out i had one large scoop of peanut butter. Maybe not the healthiest but it put meat on my bones.Figure out how to make your diet as enjoyable as possible and stick to it whether you are trying to bulk or cut. If you hate the foods your are eating chances are you are not going to stick to the diet then.Definitely keep a log of your workouts. This will serve for two purposes. To keep track of your weight and see if your getting stronger or maybe over training and to get the hot girls number at the gym. If you are not going to be serious about your diet and take the time to learn all the info about steroids, then you should not be seriously considering using them. Keep reading and learning everyday. Its not a sprint it is a marathon.

Members question: What kind of training program do you follow?
bjpennnn: 3 days on 1 day off. 30 mins of cardio following every workout. i never take more then 1 min rest between set. Chest/Hamstrings, Biceps/Triceps, Quads/Calves/Abs, Shoulders, Back/Calves. Light cardio on off days as well.

Members question: What as been the best cycle so far for building muscle for you?
bjpennnn: I enjoy prop. Too many factors that are involved in that that question to give you a true answer, but i would say the one that I am going to run next should be the most promising. Mast/Prop/anavar/proviron.

marcus300: What as been the highest and lowest times of your life and what would you change about your past?
bjpennn: Wow, well...I lost 18 million dollars in inheritance a few years back which obviously propelled me into one of the lowest points in my life. It lead to another conviction, some more phone calls from jail to my family and nine months in rehab. It is funny because what started as the low point of my life quickly became the high point. I have reached a point in my life were i am now at peace with myself and most importantly I have forgiven myself for all the ****ed up things that i have done to myself and everyone around me.

Guilt is a terrible thing. I have physically really hurt people before, emotionally as well and it made me feel like shit. Think about it most of us deep down inside are good people. When we do bad things over and over again it is going against what we know inside is good. That process will tear the human soul out from you.

Most people cant do bad things consistently because the guilts builds up and it eats at you. I learned how to for a short time suppress feeling guilty about anything and that let me do all the messed up things i did. When i would come out of these clouds I would be so overwhelmed with guilt is was unbearable. So i would drown myself in more drugs. It all ended with one conversation i had with my parents and sister. I encourage anyone with a drug problem to ask for help and get it.

I believe in god and this is why...I was driving my car into the desert to kill myself. My sister had called me and she had my Mother and Dad on the phone as well. They had no idea what i was doing were i was going and had intended to do. They told me they forgave me, and that i needed to learn to forgive myself. After talking a little more they told me that they loved me and no matter what happened they would be their for me. I thought i owed them at least one shot of really trying to get clean and pick up the pieces of my life. I thought to myself hey if rehab doesn't work the desert will always be there and I can always go back and kill myself.

I have been reborn honestly (definitely not a bible thumper). I can truthfully say that I have not been a happy person since i was 14 years old. Since I have been clean I am now again a happy person. I believe in god. I believe in the human spirit and I believe that the human mind can do anything it puts its mind to.

marcus300: How on earth did you lose 18 million dollars?
bjpennnn:Well, I had 18 million in stocks and the company went bankrupt with the mortgage company crisis started happening. I was making 1 million dollars a year in dividends a lone. When i had the money i was the most miserable I have ever been in my life and I am much happier now.

marcus300: It sounds like you have got your life back on track and I give you praise for holding it all together when you was so low, where would you like to see yourself in 5 years time?
bjpennnn: with graduate school, owning my own house/condo, happy/healthy/clean. Mostly just to keep growing into this great person that I know I have inside, and possibly with my future wife.

Members question: Which members do you respect and which do you think are full of it?
bjpennnn: Phate, Fireguy1, Marcus300, Titanium, Nark: They all bring a lot to the board. I like their personalities and how they handle things. I also respect everyone who has been interviewed here to many names to name them all, but it takes a lot of balls to open up and be honest about your life.

c-z:we had some words at first but like most of my best friends growing up for some reason I got in fist fights with all of them. After we had been bruised and bloody I had more respect for them. They showed me what they are made out of the passion and fight they had inside. Sounds weird...whatever ha. stevey_6t9 I think has had the funniest thread by far and thought that was worth a mention.

Members question: Are you religious?
bjpennnn:I was raised Catholic, but I do not practice. I would mostly say I am spiritual. I feel like actual religion is just the instrument that you choose to express your spirituality. They are all good and good for you, which ever one you choose.

Members question: Could you shoot someone dead, if you knew they were a killer themselves?
bjpennnn:Hmmm, yes. If they killed my family, friends, innocent people no problem. If they killed rapist, terrorist people of that sort no.

Members question: As there ever been a thread/topic what as really upset you that its disturbed your sleep?
bjpennnn: Definitely not.

Thank you marcus300 for taking the time to make this thread, I feel honored to be apart of it. Thanks to everyone who actually took the time to read all this, I love this board.

“Two little mice fell in a bucket of cream. The first mouse quickly gave up and drowned. The second mouse, wouldn't quit. He struggled so hard that eventually he churned that cream into butter and crawled out.”

Which mouse are you?