Marcus300 Interviews MaNiCC

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marcus300:Ive been waiting to interview you, at last!! well lets start then: Where abouts do you live and how do you like living in that part of the world?
007: Thanks marcus, let me just turn this steak over...I live in Manchester, England and i love it here, its by far the best city in the world..

marcus300: What are your current stats and what are you aiming for?
007: My current stats are 190lbs, 5'10, 14/16% bf. Im 38 years old... Although if there are any women reading this im 21

marcus300: Do you have a girlfriend and do you have any children?
007: I have no children that i know of. I have a girlfriend that i've been with for about 6 years..

marcus300: What was it like growing up for you and do you have a big family?
007: I have a big family however i havnt seen any of them for 15 years. My childhood wasnt the best.
My parents were upper/middle class and strict catholics.. Im not going to go into detail here but as a child i was abused and put into foster care at the age of 14. Things didnt get much better as i was again abused by a samaritan who the authorities gave me as a mentor..
So all in all instead being the best days of my life my childhood was abit crap...

marcus300: Sorry to hear about your childhood, does it still effect your life today and how did you cope with the abuse growing up?
007: No i don't believe it still effects my life today, im at peace with myself. Yes there were times in the past when the abuse overwhelmed me and i turned to drink. The consequences of my drinking were violence towards anyone who'd take up the challenge, thus meaning time in jail.. Drinking seemed to me at the time the only why out, the only way to get peace of mind..I still drink today but it doesn't effect me in the same way. I just went through a rebellious faze but like most i grew out of it...

marcus300: What do you do for a living past and present and what would be you ideal profession?
007: At 16 i joined the armed forces, (Cheshire regiment), thats infantry. I left after 3 years and believe its one of the biggest mistakes i've made. I then went on to work for British Rail as a signalman..
This job lasted for approx 6/7 years and only ended because i did a very stupid thing and ended up in jail for almost three years.. Since then ive not had a real job, and ive never claimed benefits...

marcus300: A signalman is a good job and if your in charge of the right signal box it can be quite lucrative, why did you take the path of easy money when you had a good job?
007: Just to clear this up, i didn't willingly give that job up, money was never an issue at that time. I was the signalman at Winsford which is a class c singnalbox. Everyone starts as a class a and works their way up to a class f. So i had worked hard at that time to gain promotion from an a to a c and at that time i was the youngest class c signalman in the northwest. However my drinking was becoming a serious problem and one night a doorman, who by the way was only doing his job, upset me. I stabbed him in the throat and the rest is history. I went straight to prison, convicted of a section 18 assault. I spent almost three years inside and it was then that i decided my future was in crime and there were more than enough people inside to teach me what i needed to know..

marcus300: Can you name all the multi -spad signals that MP control lol?
007: There are or were only ten reasons why a train could pass a signal at danger. These reasons would be found in the signalman's general instructions, there basic. However each area may have amendments that pertain to that location, these would come under local instructions. So when you say MP i presume you mean Manchester Piccadilly, if so then other than what is in the general instructions i wouldn't know..A couple that i remember are: When instructed to do so by the signalman. When the signal is damaged and the line ahead is clear. When there is work being carried out on the line. When a train has failed you can proceed to investigate.. That's all i can remember, and on every occasion the train would continue with caution...Not sure if this is the question your asking but its been along time lol..

marcus300: Tell our readers what as been the highest and lowest moments in your life?
007: Being abused amounts to the lowest points of my life thus far.. Ive had many highs in my life, but to some this may sound abit shallow. The high that sticks in my memory most was when i walked into an Audi show room, saw a brand new RS4 and bought it there and then. It cost £52.500.00 And i had enough money at the time to buy 3 of them.. Not only is this alittle shollow because its materialistic but also because the money came from crime.

marcus300: Where all your proceedings from crime taken away from you when you got caught or do you still have a stash?
007: No my proceeds case is still on going, i was infact due to be in court tomorrow but its been put off again..
The law over here states that you can only pay back what you still have, they call this, "realisable assets". I have no realisable assets. I was shocked however when my solicitor first turned up with my proceeds papers, she had to bring them in on a trolly. She looked at me and said "you have been busy havnt you".. The starting figure which is what the state want back off you was 1.5 million, this figure will stay with me for the rest of my life so if i ever win the lottery i have to pay back 1.5million. This is what they say i have earnt from crime in the last 6 years. It is then my job to prove that i have spent it all, whatever i cant account for becomes my realisable figure and i must pay that back within 12 months.. I have to date £5.000 to account for, its taken a massive amount of work including sleepless nights but im almost there.

marcus300: What was jail like for you and what lessons did you learn?
007: Jail can be what you make of it. Im an easy going person now and i get on with most people, i also knew a lot of people inside, this helped me settle quickly. You do make friends inside and theres a number of people id like to see when they get out, these particular guy's arnt going back they've made a one off mistake and have learnt from it. But i have to say most the guy's there will spend the rest of their lives going in and out. What going to jail has taught me this time is that i dont want to be one of those guy's. I have a girlfriend that i love to bits and very good friends around me, that really was my last time, besides im getting to old..

marcus300: I wont go into what crime you committed because I know you only told a few of us, but have you ever been in trouble with the law before or was this the first time?
007: Sadly ive been in trouble a few times and this was by no means the first time ive been inside, im not proud. That was the last time..

marcus300: Name the biggest 3 things you missed the most being locked up?
007: The gym.Food.Girlfriend.

marcus300: What advice would you give to someone younger who is tempted for the easy money route in life?
007: Dont waste your life because that's what it is, a complete waste..I would gladly give all the money i have earnt back if it ment i could have those days/years back that ive spent stagnant in jail...Make something of your life..

Members question: Did it cross your mind when you was doing time inside that your girlfriend would cheat on you?
007: Never, not once..

marcus300: Name on thing you would change about your past if you could?
007:My parents

marcus300: I sense a little resentment towards your parents, is your door closed for good to your parents?
007: The door will never open. I have come to terms with that, i never wish to see my parents again....

marcus300: When did you first start bodybuilding and what is your AAS history?
007:I started weight training/ bbing whilst i was in the armed forces but stopped when i came out.. I started again about 8 years ago, however ive had a few small breaks. Its a passion now. As for my aas history, well ive run numerous cycles. Ive used test e, test c, sustanon, tren e, dbol infact more than i care to mention. My first few cycles were without pct which i regret and at the begining my diet wasnt always good so alot of my first cycles were a complete waste...

marcus300: What frustrates you about life?
007: I hate some of our laws, some of the worst drugs known to man are legal when some of the least harmfull arnt. But what frustrates me most at the moment is watching young kids go into jail only to come out in a worse state of mind to when they went in.. Im not sure if its the same in the U.S but young guy's over here go to jail for short sentences. Locked up with older men only to learn how commit crime in a better or more violent way. They never recieve any rehabilitation and its rare for them to be educated. Yet the politicians keep rambling on about sending more and more of these kids to jail.. One day they'll wake up and realise jail doesnt always work..
Dont get me wrong, there are those that truely deserve to be there, im talking about petty crime..

marcus300: Where in the world would you most like to visit?
007: I would love to go to the U.S.
Maybe one day we can have a big AR get together in the States..

marcus300: What are your future plans?
007: I have no solid plans at the moment except that im going to be living in the gym and eating like a horse for the next few months. There are a number of people that would like me to get involved with some new business projects which i might get involved with, all legal btw....

Members question: Do you think you will ever do time again?
007: You can never say never but i shall never put myself in that position again..Infact as many know im currently on a tag, which means even the hint of trouble will be enough to send me back.. A couple of Sundays ago i was driving home from the gym when i noticed some guy walking in the road, i slowed down as you do. As i was just about to pass him he leapt infront of the car, he screamed "fvcking get out", before i knew what was happening he was at my window trying to get the door open. Now like most people i don't mind using my fists but i knew if i got out and hit him i could be the one who gets arrested, especially if i make a mess of him. so i kept calm and got out, i bent over to lift up my track suit bottoms to show him i was on a tag and wanted no trouble. As i was doing this he started to swinging for me, of course i made him miss and once he was out of breath i tried to reason with him again. He seemed to accept my reasoning and agreed to move on. However as i turned to get back into the car he got a second lease of life and began to swing for me again, i had to do something because this could of gone on all day so i gave him a little left jab, which cut the underneath of his right eye. This seemed to throw him completely off, i could now see the fear in his eyes, it was as if he was saying to himself, "wtf have i got myself into here". He quickly moved on but many people had seen all of this and someone had called the police..

I thought i would be going back to jail even though none of this was my fault but luckily the police and probation sided with me. The guy that started all of this was arrested and sectioned, he had a history of mental illness...

I will never intentionally put myself in the position to go back..

Members question: Was it worth it?
007: No

marcus300: Who would you most like to meet from AR?
007: I just couldn't name one person, id like to go to the states and if i was there id like to meet,Prone,Haz,Dukki, Cal, Ms, Dsm, Big, Moose, cz, Fireguy's wife, and fireguy, reed. Their just a few..

Id hope that in the not to distant future the guy's over here could meet up because id like to meet yourself, Swifto, Siggy, Goose, eb, and a few others..

marcus300: What does a typical day look like for you?
007: Im up at 6.30am to eat, il log on here for a couple of hours before i head to the gym. I will then make any appointments that i have before i return here for the rest of the day. Im alittle restricted at the moment because im still on a tag for four months, so im going to be spending most of my time on here... I love being here, i love helping people, i love learning from you guy's and this place makes me feel that im at home with my extended family...


marcus300: What as been the most productive AAS cycle you have done?
007:Test e 500mgs ew, tren e 500mgs ew, for 12 weeks, all i can say is wow...I gained more from this one cycle than i did from all my cycles put together. I will run this cycle again along with hgh in about 6 months..

marcus300: What's the biggest mistake you see newbies making on AR:
007: Rushing into cycles when their to young or have no clue what it is their putting into their bodies..I understand that theres a lot of pressure on the younger guy's to look good, more so now than when i was young. But i know that all their looking for is a quick fix, their not prepared to work hard and diet hard. I feel that we have a duty to do our best to turn them away from aas, we have a duty to teach them how to eat correctly and train hard. Then once their old enough we also have a duty to guide them and educate them as best we can on the usage of aas.
Members question: What kind of diet do you follow?
007: This is what i ate yesterday, not the best but remember ive been starved for nearly 8 months...

Meal 1. 150g Branflakes, 9 egg whites 1 whole egg..
Meal 2. Pre-workout. 5 whole eggs 150g white rice...
Meal 3. Post-workout. 5 whole eggs scrambled 150g sweat potato..
Meal 5. 200g skinless chicken breast 200 white rice...
Meal 6. 250g lean beef steak and salad.
Meal 7. 150g tuna, 50g olives..
Meal 8. Before bed 9 egg white 1 whole egg..

I also take supplements and vitamins, only two protein shakes each day....

Not the best diet by along way, more carbs and fats but its a work in progress..

marcus300: Are you religious?
007: No, however i do believe theres some kind of god..

Members question: Be honest, how much money do you have from your criminal activities (if any)
007: None

marcus300: How do you feel about being promoted to Monitor?
007: Very happy. However i do believe there are some great guy's on the board that deserve the promotion too. Its not a position that i will let go to my head, im not in anyway power crazy. But its a good feeling to be given the chance, it means i must be doing something right and to have the backing from Admin and the other members of staff means an awful lot..

Members question: What was the first three things you did when you got out?
007: Probation, sex and ate one of the biggest steaks ive ever seen...

Members question: What is your passion in life?
007: My girlfriend and training, this place is also a passion...

Members question: If you had to kiss a member on AR (male)who would it be?
007:Would sooner die...

marcus300: 3 wishes, what would you wish for?
007: I could change my past. Live happily ever after with my gf. Become bigger than J Cutler..

marcus300 interviews MaNiCC

marcus300: Where in there world do you live and how do you like living there?
MaNiCC: I live in a small town called Barnsley in South Yorkshire, England

marcus300: What are your current stats and are you happy with them?
MaNiCC: 168lbs, 5'5 around 13%bf. i am not happy at all, I lost alot of weight when i was in hospital last year, what was on offer food wise i would not have fed to a dog. so im just trying to get back into a proper routine and improve. i don't think i will ever be happy with my stats, im just that sort of person.

marcus300: Are you married and do you have any children?
MaNiCC:Not married and have no children that i know of.

Members question: Do you have a girlfriend?
MaNiCC: Im seein someone at the moment, nothing serious for the moment. I like it that way.

marcus300:What do you do for a living?
MaNiCC:Im currently training to be a psychiatric nurse. i do the odd days work here and there off the books, anything i can do to earn some cash.

Members question: What jobs have you done?
MaNiCC: I have worked in warehouses, metal fabrication, other bits here and there off the books. Im still in education so i just do what i can when i can fit it in with my studies.

marcus300: Do you come from a large family and are you close?
MaNiCC: I come from a large family, I have 5 brothers and 5 sisters. some are half brothers and sisters but i share at least one parent with all of them. I wouldn't consider myself to be close to any of my family except my mum and one of my sisters. I was subject to physical violence and many domestic situations when i was a child which was partly the reason i developed mental health problems.

marcus300: Sorry to hear about the physical abuse you have suffered in your childhood, do you want to tell our readers your thoughts,feelings and how did this occur to you at such a young age?
MaNiCC:My parents separated when i was five. My mum is one of the nicest people you will meet, but this quality unfortunately attracted abusive men. The abuse first came from the men in my mums life and i wasn't the only one to experience it. My mum fled from several relationships and we lived in two womens refuge's for a period of about 14 months. I am one of the youngest of my mums children, they say that the abused become the abusers and this is what happened. I was too small to defend myself from the abuse. i have mixed feelings towards these experiences, on the positive side i learnt at a young age that world can be a horrible place and to never take things for granted. I began to pay close attention to everything and everybody, i guess that's why I'm good at reading people and why i quickly notice the motives behind peoples actions. on the downside i feel angry towards my past and i developed mental/psychological problems because of my experiences.

marcus300: Can you tell us the reason behind your screen name?
MaNiCC: I occasionally become very hyper and have been described as manic. I become very hyper and overactive for no apparent reason.

marcus300: Have you ever been in trouble with the law?
MaNiCC: I've had my brushes with the law,especially last year when i wasn't very well. but i have never been charged.

marcus300: What have been the highest and lowest points in your life?
MaNiCC:I'd say the lowest point of my life was when i tried to commit suicide last year, alot of things started to get on top of me and i didn't see no other way out. I'd say the highest point is probably now because i am making great progress with my recovery and i honestly feel like i have a second chance in life and the world is at my feet.

marcus300:I take it the reason why you was in hospital last year was because you tried to kill yourself, can you explain the mind set you was in and how everything got on top of you that you wanted to end your life?
MaNiCC:I was depressed from an early age and always viewed the glass as half empty. Every time i got up off of the floor something else would kick me back to the ground. I was like this for many years then my mental state deteriorated rapidly over a period of eighteen months. I was unstable, out of control, a danger to others and myself. one minute i could be a crying wreck, the next minute i could be violent. I have a personality disorder, they say people with these disorders develop some parts of their personality quickly and properly, but don't develop othersides properly. i couldn't control my emotions, my feelings or my rage

marcus300: How did you try to end your life?
MaNiCC: I tried to hang myself

marcus300: In life we have high's and low's what we have to ride out, do you struggle with dealing with these issues what may come up in our life's?
MaNiCC:Not anymore, i now rule the problems instead of them ruling me.

Members question: I believe your a young guy, how do you think your illness will be in your older years?
MaNiCC: At the moment i seem to be winning my battles with my problems so as long as i continue to make progress i dont think they will cause me too many problems. i hope.

marcus300: Experts say that people who try and fail to kill themselves is only a cry for help and if they really wanted to do it they would, what are your thoughts on this subject?
MaNiCC: Experts say many things, the only reason i am here is because i was caught. I had no intention of crying for help. Also the behaviours that i were displaying showed people that i needed help so i did not need to emphasise this. These experts may be experts on psychiatry but the people who are unwell are the experts on their feelings. they can have as many certificates as they want but they do not know what it is like to want to take their own life until they experience that feeling for themselves.

Members question: This may be a hard question to answer but did you not think how it would be for your family and friends who you would of left behind when you tried killing yourself?
MaNiCC: It did cross my mind, but i was no longer in control and i didn't see any other alternative. I know people view it as selfish but at that time i needed to try and stop myself from being like i was, i was at war with my own mind and needed peace.

marcus300: What medication are you taking and do you think your issues you suffer with will have any kind of effect in the profession your trying to get involved with?
MaNiCC: I take mood stabilizers, benzo's and beta blockers. I dont think they will have any negative impact but i do feel they will have a positive one. I will have experienced both sides of the coin, my knowledge wont just be from books but from personal experience.

Members questions: I know you have a disorder/illness that you seem somewhat open about. I am wondering how you dealt with it when you were diagnosed and how you cope with it day to day. Any issues with it while using AAS?
MaNiCC: I take everyday as it comes, whatever comes my way i deal with it and forget about it. I currently have no experience with aas as i feel i can gain more naturally

Members question: Does your illness effect other people around you or do you suffer in silence?
MaNiCC: I'd like to say it only effects me but i would be in denial if i thought it didn't effect members of my family.

marcus300: Would you say your fully recovered?
MaNiCC: No, i still have some problems, but myself and the medication control them not the other way round.

marcus300: Where do you see yourself in 5 yrs time?
MaNiCC: in 5 years time i will have qualified as a psychiatric nurse and will be looking to move to either Australia,Canada or America. There is much more to the world then england and i want to see as much of the world as i can.

marcus300: What attracts you to AR everyday?
MaNiCC:I love the people and the atmosphere here. I have made some great friends here and enjoy being part of the ar community

marcus300: Who would you most like to meet from AR?
MaNiCC: I honestly couldnt name just one but i will name a few. Calg, Dan, Eb, Siggy and mr rose

marcus300: If you could re-live an event from your past what would it be?
MaNiCC: I wish i could re-live a past relationship. if i re-lived it i would be in better health then i was at the time.

Members question: Have you ever been sectioned under the mental health act?
MaNiCC:Yes. I have been under a 5.2, 5.4, 2 and a 136

marcus300: Do you take AAS, if so what kind of cycles have you took?
MaNiCC: I currently have no cycle experience, but when i am ready i will join the darkside

Members question: I know you havent used AAS due to your age but have you ever taken any Rec drugs?
MaNiCC: I once smoked cannabis when i was young. never again, imo rec drugs dont do anybody any good in the long run

marcus300: How long have you been training for?
MaNiCC:5-6 years.

Members question: Why did you join the forum
MaNiCC: To learn and to be surrounded with like minded people

marcus300: What frustrates you about life and what makes you happy and peaceful?
MaNiCC: People are born into different circumstances and dont have the oppertunities that some do. If my familys happy, Im happy

Members question: Have you ever watch Braveheart?
MaNiCC:Yes i did finally watch the men in skirts, i know who asked this question

marcus300: Thanks for being so honest about your private life and what you have gone through, its good you can talk about them and I wish you happiness in your life.
MaNiCC: Thankyou Marcus for choosing to interviewing me, you have done a great job not only with this thread but with your contribution to the board.

marcus300: 3 wishes, what would you wish for?
MaNiCC:Me and my family to be forever happy, a successful life and jamie eason