Just need some support and encouragement

**MBMETC** · 06-29-2011, 11:09 AM

Hey guys short story i ran a prop and tren ace cycle beginning april foe 8 weeks at the end of cycle i left my house cause me and the wife are done after too many years. i have a 9 yo boy who i miss and hurt by leaving. i have since been feeling depressed, lost the will to workout and havent been eating primarily because of now lack of funds from the split. i also lost way too much weight. to complicate mattters i met someone around the same time i left the house and i dont need the extra pressure of trying to establish a relationship when im emotionaly f-ed up. also im having a hard time recovering from the tren im certain the test i ran was either bunk or severly under dosed and basically feel like i ran an tren only cycle (thank god for cialis) i have no labido and feel awful. now for the best part i was staying at a friends mothers apartment in her house at no charge till i got on my feet and due to unexpected events in her daughters life needs to come home so im out of the apartment in less than a week with no where to go and no money to rent anything. im seeking therapy and gonna try to push myself to get in the gym which i think will be good for me i need that time to get into my zone and just move some weight and forget about eveything for an hour..
thanks for reading and any support is appreciated..
Mike

oh i forgot i also started smoking again after quitting for 10 years and im drinking way more than i need too.

**Bigd89** · 06-29-2011, 11:33 AM

Come stay in Oklahoma with me and my wife, we got room

**MBMETC** · 06-29-2011, 11:37 AM

Originally Posted by Bigd89

Come stay in Oklahoma with me and my wife, we got room

dont be suprised if i show up at your door..lol

**Bigd89** · 06-29-2011, 11:40 AM

Originally Posted by MBMETC

dont be suprised if i show up at your door..lol

Haha, as long as you got some cash to make it down here, and your not some crazy serial killer, come on down!

**Shol'va** · 06-29-2011, 11:50 AM

Sorry to hear the bad news. You are definitely in a downward spiral that you need to pull out of or it will take you right down with it. You need a friend right now who is close to you that you can confide in.

**MBMETC** · 06-29-2011, 11:51 AM

Originally Posted by Bigd89

Haha, as long as you got some cash to make it down here, and your not some crazy serial killer, come on down!

havent killed anyone yet..lol

**MBMETC** · 06-29-2011, 11:52 AM

Originally Posted by Shol'va

Sorry to hear the bad news. You are definitely in a downward spiral that you need to pull out of or it will take you right down with it. You need a friend right now who is close to you that you can confide in.

well thats kinda what the relationship i have is with the benifit of mind blowing sex..

**RaginCajun** · 06-29-2011, 01:17 PM

damn bro. thats a shitty story, but it is not the end of the world. go read thru the pain thread that was recently posted and you will see that your situation is only bad for the time being. in the meantime, you need to go look in the mirror and smack yourself. after you have smacked yourself back to reality, take a deep breath. get back in the gym, it will help focus your energy on something positive instead of sitting around crying about it. you also need to focus on that 9 YEAR OLD if you know whats good for ya. and also, i don't know who comes out of a marriage and already has a 'relationship' right after? seems as if this person might have been there all along? do have any friends that can at least be there for you til you get yourself straight? no guy or girl friends to pick ya up?

**MBMETC** · 06-29-2011, 01:36 PM

Originally Posted by 00ragincajun00

damn bro. thats a shitty story, but it is not the end of the world. go read thru the pain thread that was recently posted and you will see that your situation is only bad for the time being. in the meantime, you need to go look in the mirror and smack yourself. after you have smacked yourself back to reality, take a deep breath. get back in the gym, it will help focus your energy on something positive instead of sitting around crying about it. you also need to focus on that 9 YEAR OLD if you know whats good for ya. and also, i don't know who comes out of a marriage and already has a 'relationship' right after? seems as if this person might have been there all along? do have any friends that can at least be there for you til you get yourself straight? no guy or girl friends to pick ya up?

well i guess you can say its an affair. ya i got some family hopefuly i can count on.
thanks for taking the time to respond

**Kawigirl** · 06-29-2011, 02:50 PM

Coming out of a relationship..and your messed up...your going to attract like people! Stick to yourself...get yourself better (which you obviously are intelligent enough to understand the importance).....and it'll fall back into place. How long you have to wait...is different for everyone.

Glad your seeking therapy. Everyone at some point in there life should imo.....

All the best MB...

**MBMETC** · 06-29-2011, 02:54 PM

Originally Posted by Kawigirl

Coming out of a relationship..and your messed up...your going to attract like people! Stick to yourself...get yourself better (which you obviously are intelligent enough to understand the importance).....and it'll fall back into place. How long you have to wait...is different for everyone.

Glad your seeking therapy. Everyone at some point in there life should imo.....

All the best MB...

Thanks Kawi

BG · 06-29-2011, 04:46 PM

You need to stop drinking/smoking and get heathy. By doing that you will feel pysicaly better, which will help you emotionally. Right now you need to be by yourself, get independantly strong and work your ass off to get some money up. Eat , work, train, sleep and repeat. Thats it.

**MBMETC** · 06-29-2011, 06:17 PM

Originally Posted by BG

You need to stop drinking/smoking and get heathy. By doing that you will feel pysicaly better, which will help you emotionally. Right now you need to be by yourself, get independantly strong and work your ass off to get some money up. Eat , work, train, sleep and repeat. Thats it.

True very true

**VegasRenegade** · 06-29-2011, 07:14 PM

I am old school so no support from me stop wining get of your ass and get your shit together. Your kid deservers better.

**MBMETC** · 06-29-2011, 07:56 PM

Update....just got back from the gym first time in like a month made 35 mins and I weak like a girl.lol but it did feel good and the pump is an amazing feeling. Gonna work hard at this and will be back better than before..

**MBMETC** · 06-29-2011, 07:57 PM

Originally Posted by VegasRenegade

I am old school so no support from me stop wining get of your ass and get your shit together. Your kid deservers better.

Not whining just sharing with the people who know me from being around here all day every day.

**Shol'va** · 06-29-2011, 08:14 PM

Originally Posted by MBMETC

Not whining just sharing with the people who know me from being around here all day every day.

Lounge Whore!

**LGM** · 06-29-2011, 09:01 PM

Glad for you bro; each day is another chance to take a step in the right direction.

**Times Roman** · 06-30-2011, 03:37 AM

the gym will be excellent therapy.

**Braveone** · 06-30-2011, 03:47 AM

Poor me, poor me, pour me another. I'm in recovery and even though we have plenty of extra chairs in the rooms, I'd rather not see you in one of them if you can avoid it. But "drinking way more than I should" is a great way to reserve one. A pity party is always byob.

**Times Roman** · 06-30-2011, 03:58 AM

Originally Posted by Braveone

Poor me, poor me, pour me another. I'm in recovery and even though we have plenty of extra chairs in the rooms, I'd rather not see you in one of them if you can avoid it. But "drinking way more than I should" is a great way to reserve one. A pity party is always byob.

I've used "alcohol therapy" on many occassions over my life. I've avoided the chair you refer to since, for some reason, I'm able to stop after awhile. I do know that stopping can be very difficult for some. Being Irish, I am partial to the drink. So I still need to be careful

**MBMETC** · 06-30-2011, 07:46 AM

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**Twist** · 06-30-2011, 02:12 PM

Originally Posted by MBMETC

Hey guys short story i ran a prop and tren ace cycle beginning april foe 8 weeks at the end of cycle i left my house cause me and the wife are done after too many years. i have a 9 yo boy who i miss and hurt by leaving. i have since been feeling depressed, lost the will to workout and havent been eating primarily because of now lack of funds from the split. i also lost way too much weight. to complicate mattters i met someone around the same time i left the house and i dont need the extra pressure of trying to establish a relationship when im emotionaly f-ed up. also im having a hard time recovering from the tren im certain the test i ran was either bunk or severly under dosed and basically feel like i ran an tren only cycle (thank god for cialis) i have no labido and feel awful. now for the best part i was staying at a friends mothers apartment in her house at no charge till i got on my feet and due to unexpected events in her daughters life needs to come home so im out of the apartment in less than a week with no where to go and no money to rent anything. im seeking therapy and gonna try to push myself to get in the gym which i think will be good for me i need that time to get into my zone and just move some weight and forget about eveything for an hour..
thanks for reading and any support is appreciated..
Mike

oh i forgot i also started smoking again after quitting for 10 years and im drinking way more than i need too.

I can't even begin to tell you how many bad life stories begin with the bold...

SO let me get this straight; you ran a tren and test cycle, got in a ton of arguments with your wife, split up, had an affair, came off cycle, got depressed and have no libido/confidence/motivation? Hmmmm... I think I have the answer for you. Go to a doctor and get some trt.

Your confidence/motivation will come right back, and then you can work out the rest. Tren makes people angry. Tren = roid rage that everyone always talks about. I have seen it so many times.

**MBMETC** · 07-01-2011, 06:51 AM

Originally Posted by Twist

I can't even begin to tell you how many bad life stories begin with the bold...

SO let me get this straight; you ran a tren and test cycle, got in a ton of arguments with your wife, split up, had an affair, came off cycle, got depressed and have no libido/confidence/motivation? Hmmmm... I think I have the answer for you. Go to a doctor and get some trt.

Your confidence/motivation will come right back, and then you can work out the rest. Tren makes people angry. Tren = roid rage that everyone always talks about. I have seen it so many times.

No the tren had nothing to do with my feelings for my wife, the marrige has been dead for years i just had enough..

**terraj** · 07-01-2011, 07:17 AM

Originally Posted by MBMETC

No the tren had nothing to do with my feelings for my wife, the marrige has been dead for years i just had enough..

Marriage had been dead for years....so what are bitching about then?

And why don't you have any money? If you have no money and have a kid to support, what were you doing running a cycle?

**MBMETC** · 07-01-2011, 08:49 AM

Originally Posted by terraj

Marriage had been dead for years....so what are bitching about then?

And why don't you have any money? If you have no money and have a kid to support, what were you doing running a cycle?

i give all my money to my wife to support the house i left, i lost the apartment i had for free for a couple of months and im upset for my son not my wife. i thought i was clear in my op but i guess not

**terraj** · 07-01-2011, 03:55 PM

I may have been a bit tough there, my bad, but focus on that kid instead of feeling shitty and drinking. You can still see him right?

**scorpion62** · 07-01-2011, 05:08 PM

Originally Posted by terraj

I may have been a bit tough there, my bad, but focus on that kid instead of feeling shitty and drinking. You can still see him right?

You have to be there for your kid make that the focus point in your life drink gets you no where nothing comes from the ass of a bottle good luck mate I have been there life is sh1t but we have to make the best of what we have and its a one time deal so crack on bin the bottle

**MBMETC** · 07-02-2011, 05:54 AM

Originally Posted by terraj

I may have been a bit tough there, my bad, but focus on that kid instead of feeling shitty and drinking. You can still see him right?

I see him everyday if only for 2 or 3 hours, he needs me and i know that.

**MBMETC** · 07-02-2011, 05:55 AM

Originally Posted by scorpion62

You have to be there for your kid make that the focus point in your life drink gets you no where nothing comes from the ass of a bottle good luck mate I have been there life is sh1t but we have to make the best of what we have and its a one time deal so crack on bin the bottle

thamks for the kind words, i am gonna get my shit together im just searching for the strength to do what needs to be done. gonna start therapy next week.

**DSM4Life** · 07-02-2011, 06:24 AM

No need to dwell on the past. Live in the present and change yourself for tomorrow.

**oscarjones** · 07-02-2011, 09:32 AM

Smack your bitch ass wife and kick her forehead through the wall. Then take your son and skip to Canada.

**Windex** · 07-02-2011, 09:42 AM

Mate I got plenty of room. Rent is gonna be 2 bottles of test and 2 bottles of Tren though.

In all seriousness, goodluck on the road to recovery.

Mind Over Matter.

**MBMETC** · 07-02-2011, 05:12 PM

Originally Posted by oscarjones

Smack your bitch ass wife and kick her forehead through the wall. Then take your son and skip to Canada.

Hmmm that's always an option.lol

**MBMETC** · 07-02-2011, 05:13 PM

Originally Posted by Windex

Mate I got plenty of room. Rent is gonna be 2 bottles of test and 2 bottles of Tren though.

In all seriousness, goodluck on the road to recovery.

Mind Over Matter.

Thanks I'm gonna be fine I can pull through this

**lovbyts** · 07-02-2011, 11:58 PM

Originally Posted by MBMETC

i give all my money to my wife to support the house i left, i lost the apartment i had for free for a couple of months and im upset for my son not my wife. i thought i was clear in my op but i guess not

Why do people do this? Sorry but I fought all the way to get custody and I won. If all things where equal and we just didnt have any reason to stay together then the custody should/would be 50/50, and she would expect 1/2 the bills along with anything else. No way would I walk away from my house or as many people do their pension, 401K etc. Why? No reason now days she can not work also and as most do it needs to be counted. As far as the house it would be sold and profits/losses split unless she wants to cash you out and pay the mortgage.

To many people dont consider the future financial ramifications and let emotions do all the thinking.

Sorry for the rant and I hope you get your head on straight and figure things out. Remember, no matter how bad you have it someone has it worse. Now make it better.

**Times Roman** · 07-03-2011, 12:07 AM

some people find this type of support helpful..........?

**MBMETC** · 07-08-2011, 07:39 AM

update, started therapy last evening and looking foward to getting back on track..

**calgarian** · 07-08-2011, 07:48 AM

Sorry to hear abt your shitty situation. Low test levels can also caused depression. Dont get suckered into a relationship cause yu think its a right thing to do...it is not you get out of one relationship and fall right into another? doesnt sound right........you know what they say If you can get milk why bother with buying a cow.....
It just really really sad that you have a child....good thing that you are seeking therapy....Lets just hope you get out this alive and better person.

**MBMETC** · 07-08-2011, 07:52 AM

Originally Posted by calgarian

Sorry to hear abt your shitty situation. Low test levels can also caused depression. Dont get suckered into a relationship cause yu think its a right thing to do...it is not you get out of one relationship and fall right into another? doesnt sound right........you know what they say If you can get milk why bother with buying a cow.....
It just really really sad that you have a child....good thing that you are seeking therapy....Lets just hope you get out this alive and better person.

ahmen brother