As many of you may already know, i'm working towards a science degree in human biology, and then off to med school to ultimately become a doctor, but i'll worry about crossing that bridge when I get there. In the last couple of years though, i've run into these roadblocks and 'speedbumps' on the road to my ultimate goal that have slowed me down. And every single time something slows me down, it pisses me the hell off. It then becomes so hard to maintain the motivation to keep going at times.
For example, some of you here know of that exam I mentioned from last month in late August that I ended up failing because of unfortunate life circumstances getting in the way of my studying, and ultimately I ended up failing the exam BAD. Well, I was granted a re-write for Oct 13. It's a couple weeks away now. I had originally planned to be back on track with another course I need to get done by Sept 1st and here I am, a month behind already! All i've been thinking to myself lately is "here I am, re-writing an exam I should've/could've nailed on the first attempt but didn't due to another unforseen roadblock in my way". And though I have been studying in preparation for the last month, it's quite difficult to maintain that motivation to just keep it up, and there have been nights over the last week or two where i've been like "fvck studying" and chose to do something else instead. But i'll do it. I'll get it done.
Just ranting.