Loss Of Wellbeingi/feeling different past few years.
Hey guys, to keep a long story short, about two years ago i remember waking up one morning feeling different, lost my sense of wellbeing, felt different. It literally broke my life in two, just for an example, i used to not let things bother me, i mean nothing bothered me, i used to be a fun person that would go out to clubs and stuff and smile and have a good time, now after i woke up that morning, i dont go to clubs, because i just cant enjoy mysef for some reason, its like the opposite now, i get agitated more easily, im more grumpy and some times just feel brain dead, i had boatloads of bloods done including E2, prolactin, cortisol, the whole works and it all came back fine. I just feel blank, Now the past 2 years i have learnt to deal with it and im adjusting to it now now i still can not figure what went wrong that morning, i thought it were the hormones i was using, on tren/prop at the time. Even after returning to TRT i didnt feel my old self, i never bothered trying to do a PCT/restart even tho im on legit TRT, i just couldnt bring myself to come off and sacrifice all my mass that i worked hard for year after year.
A lot of the times when i try to think of what happened a few days ago i get like a mental block in my brain that makes me feel like i cant push past the block and i can t think. Overall my whole sense of wellbeing has dropped. I remember before this all happened, listening to songs and i would get a certain feel to, now i can listen to the song and feel nothing. My partner who has been with me through the whole thing has stuck by my side and i dont think ive treated her how i should have because of all this, if it wasnt for her in my life, im not sure where i would be.
Anyway, plenty more to write but yeh. Just gets me wondering, what happened that morning, i just cant figure it out and why i changed..
