When does family stop being family?
I gotta write myself off a little just to empty my head, brace yourself for a little personal writing lol
Both my family (parents) and relatives have always had a screw loose in one way or the other.
I guess we all have someone f*cked up, and it's no different for me.
Rejection, alcoholism, verbal & mental abuse, even incest rape at one side of my relative side....
The f'cked up thing is that we have always been close, all of us, so when something happens we all get involved! Like a Swedish redneck festival...
Now without going in to too much detail around, I'll try to keep it short and I'd love to hear you guys opinions - tip of the iceberg.
My biological dad has always been the "friend" type, not the dad type.
He has been messing up year after year with me and my sisters, but we have tried to forget and forgive because we know that he
has chronic depression in some degree and deep inside want us around, but can't handle us getting close.
His b*tch girl for 20 years has fed him with lies, hate and bitterness which has broken him even more and we've hardly had any contact for 15-20 years.
Just the occasional fake "how are you? we love you" dinner 4 times a year.
The atmosphere in that home is horrible to say the least, so much anger and regret.
Me and him had great contact when I was a kid, and I still love him and live on those memories.
Now he got cancer and didn't know if he would survive at first, but I can honestly say that I didn't care and didn't want to call and ask how he is.
That scares me and makes me feel low as fck.
Yesterday he put out a long text on facebook calling me and my sisters out how we not care and more or less are fcking useless
since neither of us called/ cared at a moment like cancer.
My sister want to call just because the call out and the guilt is breaking them with all issues around.
Me - I feel more bad for having to call, and still but less bad for not calling.
Telling how we feel has just made things worse over the years.
Now - when does family stop being family? Should we keep fighting with guilt and anger, or should we just ignore them and let them die alone.
Both paths are making me feel like crap each day.