"Why is it you don't want to be around me? Why is it you aren't here? Why do I have to raise our kids alone? Why are you gone all the time? You're trying to find ways to hide from me and the family!"
Some people have a fire that burns inside them brighter than anything that could ever pull them away from their dreams. Some people dream a little harder than others some people live a little harder than others. Some people live in a way that no force that binds can keep them away from giving every single thing they have to seeing their dreams come true and it's not entirely selfish.
I am convinced that anyone the felt the fire beneath my feet could not do anything different. You all know them the people like me. The ones who had a fire beneath their feet so strong that they never walked away gave it all they had and left this world early many times in the process.
Dallas McCarver Rich Piana Randy Savage Luke sandoe I could go on forever naming names of people that gave everything that had to something and it in the end it may have failed them more than may have actually made them successful in ways that most will never understand.
You know these people because many talk shit about them, yet many praise them as an inspiration. A man told me a long time ago that when someone talks shit about you it's because they are jealous. That's exactly how I see the other side. Those who doesn't understand the fire it takes... the hell in your veins, the drive in your soul... to do something great that leaves a lasting projection of yourself on this world long after you're gone.
What the fuck is life? What are you doing here and what do you hope to get out of this journey? My goals weren't as short and simple as most people's so I am cast out as a selfish motherfuker because I chose to realize my full potential rather than sit on the sidelines in safety and seek something not so great and average like everyone else. We aren't the same I will never be like you. The difference between me and you is I have the balls to accept that if I fail in attempting my successes I may truly be remembered as a piece of shit. If I succeed though... you will be nothing more than shit that I scrape from my feet, in my final judgement.
I walked my road a long time I've been left by everyone in my life I have no close family that I really talk to other than my nearest family which is my girlfriend and my children. I'm not scared to lose people anymore and to be honest that was the first key and the first step to my success was to lose that fear that someone would reject me.
I did not have self identity whatsoever until I was 29 years old. I know exactly who I am in the people that want me to be something different have no fucking clue who they are or they wouldn't be relying on me to be someone that they wanted me to be rather they would move all with their fucking life and find someone else to be what they wanted.
Its 7:05 pm.
I am exhausted. Been to court against my ex today and it was a success and she doesnt know the hell I have in store for her.
I am heading back to get another tree down alone. Its over a house and I worked my hired guy enough I gave him the rest of the week off.
I will work all weekend.
My gf and kids want me home.
I am paying the price in my heart but I know I have to do this and I want this for my families betterment.
Its a fire I cant ignore.
Judge me and I still say you couldn't hack a day in my shoes with my decisions to make in life and I dont judge yours.
Make your dreams come true.
No one will hand it to you.
