Retroactive jealousy

**Test Monsterone** · 08-15-2020, 05:35 AM

I was on test, deca , and dhb the last 3 months. Dropped deca a month ago. Dropped dhb 3 weeks ago and added primo. So now I’m on 250 test/ 400 primo. Not much.

Suddenly I’m getting a lot of emotional problems, mostly anger and jealousy. Things my new gf (3 months approx) told me a month ago are now making me angry. Stories about her exes, or how many boyfriends she’s had. At night I sometimes dream of getting in fights or having someone talk shit behind my back or confront me. I wake up in the middle of the night with a lot of anger or jealousy, and even depression.

I’m supposed to go to dinner with her family for the first time today and I was seriously considering telling her I want to break up because of the feelings I’m having. These were 4 am thoughts.

I searched online and saw a lot of guys have similar issues; even guys happily married for 15-20 years. I’ve never felt quite like this up until now, though I’ve had a few moments in the past. Some say it’s estrogen related, some say it’s androgen, some day it’s a disruption of seratonin.

I want to continue this cycle until the end of the month, but I also don’t want to let these paranoid thoughts really distort my reality and ruin my relationship. I usually never get jealous, or at least nothing like this.

Interested to know if you guys have dealt with this. I didn’t think primo was that strong of a steroid , and I never expected these many obsessive negative thoughts.

**sv.elia** · 08-15-2020, 09:39 AM

Going through the exact same^ I don't think it's estrogen/test related, just hormone fluctations. I get these feelings in the cycles I change dosages a lot. And also when I start a birth control pill pack.

I'm just focusing my mind on taking nothing personally. A person did something, it is related to them and it has nothing to do with my self-worth. Just get into a bubble where no one's actions impact image. Jealousy is just that, someone's actions influencing the way you perceive yourself. Same works for thoughts that involve people letting you down. No amount of anxiety will change what others are or are not capable to do.

Sleep helps a lot, usually negative thoughts happen when you're tired. Like, 3-4 am, after a poor night's sleep, is just their hour. Also after a tiresome day, before falling asleep. If the schedule allows get some rest during the day. Everything's brighter after a nap, lol!

**< <Samson> >** · 08-16-2020, 04:19 AM

It’s the roids - that’s it

Even way before my new found medical issues, I went through emotional spells that I knew were roid related - best way I always explained it to myself is “we’re always hormonal” - my wife said I got a period every month - and our’s would b at the same time

Messing with your hormones does effect how we feel

**ghettoboyd** · 08-16-2020, 04:46 AM

Originally Posted by < <Samson> >

It’s the roids - that’s it

Even way before my def found medical issues, I went through emotional spells that I knew were roid related - best way I always explained it to myself is “we’re always hormonal” - my wife said I got a period every month - and our’s would b at the same time

Messing with your hormones does effect how we feel

my wife say the same thing of me that im pms ing at least once a month glad im not the only one lol...

**Mooseman33** · 08-17-2020, 07:16 AM

Originally Posted by < <Samson> >

It’s the roids - that’s it

Even way before my new found medical issues, I went through emotional spells that I knew were roid related - best way I always explained it to myself is “we’re always hormonal” - my wife said I got a period every month - and our’s would b at the same time

Messing with your hormones does effect how we feel

Bingo my brotha.

OP- drop all the shit and either pct or go back to ur trt (if ur on it)

We all have gone thru stuff like this, i have been there so i will say this to you.
knock the shit off, stop being in ur feelings and focus on the positive, if u dont like the way u feel drop the chems.

**< <Samson> >** · 08-17-2020, 08:20 AM

Originally Posted by Mooseman33

Bingo my brotha.

OP- drop all the shit and either pct or go back to ur trt (if ur on it)

We all have gone thru stuff like this, i have been there so i will say this to you.
knock the shit off, stop being in ur feelings and focus on the positive, if u dont like the way u feel drop the chems.

I wouldn’t go that far - just ease back or do the usual test for a bit, if you still feel wack

I remember when the biggest issues I had to deal with were roid caused - shit felt as real as the real thing < looking back, I can clearly see it wasn’t

**Test Monsterone** · 08-17-2020, 08:44 AM

Man it's been rough... my next injection is tomorrow. I talked to her last night and she was almost crying because she felt bad for how I was feeling. I just keep having thoughts of her being with another guy that has a bigger dick/fucks her better/etc. She told me she squirted before (tmi I know), and I'm like fuck I can't even get her to finish most of the time (she uses a vibrator and has to be in a certain position), and it's not like I'm a small guy. I just feel like nothing is good enough for me. I'm never enough for myself and I'm the kind of person that wants it all or nothing. She's also older than me by 5 years so she has had a number of partners, maybe more than me. I just hate feeling like this, its honestly torture. I try to think of something else, but it keeps creeping back in my head.

Think I'm gonna take your advice, Mooseman, and drop this shit, go back to 250 test. I just hope this feeling goes away soon.

** thanks everyone; Elia, Samson, Ghettoboy, Mooseman **

**The Deadlifting Dog** · 08-17-2020, 08:46 AM

I would agree with just either going to TRT test or a low test cycle or cruise, think 500mg a week or less.

Test is naturally in our body.
The rest of this shit no...

Give your body a time to reset.

**Mooseman33** · 08-17-2020, 09:15 AM

was this ur first run with tren ?

**tbjake34** · 08-17-2020, 09:22 AM

I think everyone who has used steroids have experienced this before. Myself included I cant use tren becasue of this. Its the gear bro, but just remind urself when u have these thoughts just think to urself its the gear its not reality. U can really work urself up if u dont. Its hard sometimes to be aware that its from the drugs but it is 100%. I also noticed it more when I would first start something so starting the primo triggered it. It will subside in a week or two. Dont dump ur girl cuz of it just wait it out and see how u feel in a few weeks.

**Test Monsterone** · 08-17-2020, 11:13 AM

Originally Posted by Mooseman33

was this ur first run with tren?

I sure hope it's not tren , as the label says Primobolan 200mg/mL lol...

**< <Samson> >** · 08-17-2020, 12:48 PM

Bro, gtfo with that bull shit

Try having thoughts of your wife being with someone else after you are dead - it's life, it will happen - I seen it all around me. . . And, I have to relax the the fuck out & I'm still on juice - just a tad of deca & test

Your shit is Easy $ - relax

Can't say I don't wish that being my current toughest problem

**Honkey_Kong** · 08-17-2020, 01:09 PM

Originally Posted by Test Monsterone

Man it's been rough... my next injection is tomorrow. I talked to her last night and she was almost crying because she felt bad for how I was feeling. I just keep having thoughts of her being with another guy that has a bigger dick/fucks her better/etc. She told me she squirted before (tmi I know), and I'm like fuck I can't even get her to finish most of the time (she uses a vibrator and has to be in a certain position), and it's not like I'm a small guy. I just feel like nothing is good enough for me. I'm never enough for myself and I'm the kind of person that wants it all or nothing. She's also older than me by 5 years so she has had a number of partners, maybe more than me. I just hate feeling like this, its honestly torture. I try to think of something else, but it keeps creeping back in my head.

Think I'm gonna take your advice, Mooseman, and drop this shit, go back to 250 test. I just hope this feeling goes away soon.

** thanks everyone; Elia, Samson, Ghettoboy, Mooseman **

You're putting way too much thought in to her. She's been your GF for 3 months? That's still "pump 'n dump" territory there. Just relax and not give a schitte. By the way, chicks lie... A lot. I wouldn't be surprised if she made up that squirting story for the attention it gave her from you. Plus it establishes some elusive prize to be going for. And even if you reach it, what does it mean for you? You don't get off any more intense because she turns in to a fountain.

**Test Monsterone** · 08-17-2020, 01:13 PM

Originally Posted by < <Samson> >

Bro, gtfo with that bull shit

Try having thoughts of your wife being with someone else after you are dead - it's life, it will happen - I seen it all around me. . . And, I have to relax the the fuck out & I'm still on juice - just a tad of deca & test

Your shit is Easy $ - relax

Can't say I don't wish that being my current toughest problem

You're right brother, I got nothing compared to what you're dealing with. I need to man up, but that's why I posted on here cause I know this isn't rational or necessary.

**Test Monsterone** · 08-17-2020, 01:15 PM

Originally Posted by Honkey_Kong

You're putting way too much thought in to her. She's been your GF for 3 months? That's still "pump 'n dump" territory there. Just relax and not give a schitte. By the way, chicks lie... A lot. I wouldn't be surprised if she made up that squirting story for the attention it gave her from you. Plus it establishes some elusive prize to be going for. And even if you reach it, what does it mean for you? You don't get off any more intense because she turns in to a fountain.

I know man, and honestly I'm just now feeling a little more rational. This isn't how I would ever feel normally. It's dumb as fuck, and I agree with everything you said.

**< <Samson> >** · 08-17-2020, 01:44 PM

Originally Posted by Test Monsterone

I know man, and honestly I'm just now feeling a little more rational. This isn't how I would ever feel normally. It's dumb as fuck, and I agree with everything you said.

Sorry for getting a little too real, too fast - it's pretty much how it hit me tho

Shit, I did have probs while being on a lot of juice & other things - to be real & honest, at times I felt as bad as I do now - and this shit was made up, due to whatever imbalance or come down

But, yeah - reality sucks way more when you realize shit

**tbjake34** · 08-26-2020, 11:00 PM

Bro most girls dont cum just from banging them its a fact ask every girl u fuck how many times shes came from a dude just banging her she might say once or twice bro im telling u ive been with countless women and A LOT of them use a vib while im plowing them its very common bro.. And if u want to finish her off just get real good at eating pussy or a ton of forplay i mean like 30 min of just kissing her neck rubbing her inner thighs get her really wet the wetter she is when u start to fuck the easier itll be for u to finish her off bro or talk dirty to her and smack her ass choke her if shes into that. U have to find out what she likes bro and she will only want to fuck u. Sorry if thats TMI lol Girls are different then us u have to build them up its takes a lot more for them to finish its a process for sure. But like I said find out what shes into thats the most important part.

**< <Samson> >** · 08-27-2020, 06:04 AM

Originally Posted by tbjake34

Bro most girls dont cum just from banging them its a fact ask every girl u fuck how many times shes came from a dude just banging her she might say once or twice bro im telling u ive been with countless women and A LOT of them use a vib while im plowing them its very common bro.. And if u want to finish her off just get real good at eating pussy or a ton of forplay i mean like 30 min of just kissing her neck rubbing her inner thighs get her really wet the wetter she is when u start to fuck the easier itll be for u to finish her off bro or talk dirty to her and smack her ass choke her if shes into that. U have to find out what she likes bro and she will only want to fuck u. Sorry if thats TMI lol Girls are different then us u have to build them up its takes a lot more for them to finish its a process for sure. But like I said find out what shes into thats the most important part.

A tad TMI for some folk, but def the truth for the most part - I’d know

But, that’s y my fave are completely sex deprived women - shit, you touch me & the cum

^ that’s the opposite about the ones who get beat like a steel drum < again, I’d know

But, back to the topic - I guess. . . Can’t be retroactive jealous < that’s the beginning of insanity. Lol - being jealous for current shit, well that’s a different story

**Test Monsterone** · 08-27-2020, 08:56 AM

Since I dropped the primo, I'm back to normal. I actually bought a roid test kit to see if it's real primo, and it is. Fuck knows what was going on with me hormonally... shit is embarrassing.

**< <Samson> >** · 08-27-2020, 09:22 AM

Originally Posted by Test Monsterone

Since I dropped the primo, I'm back to normal. I actually bought a roid test kit to see if it's real primo, and it is. Fuck knows what was going on with me hormonally... shit is embarrassing.

Well, that makes me not really wanna try primo

Sounds like some good shit tho

Funny, how compounds/drugs fuck with our heads - I can seriously relate on how I felt when I dropped all compounds coming off a heavy cycle to my recent real in head brain damage

Scary

**yeahbuddy289** · 08-31-2020, 06:01 PM

Sounds like normal guy stuff to me man... I had thoughts like that long before steroids . And your worst thoughts always manifest themselves at night when you have a minute to think. I’ve spent many angry, anxiety ridden nights awake thinking similar things. Or getting angry about scenarios that haven’t even happened.

**Honkey_Kong** · 08-31-2020, 11:45 PM

Originally Posted by yeahbuddy289

Sounds like normal guy stuff to me man... I had thoughts like that long before steroids. And your worst thoughts always manifest themselves at night when you have a minute to think. I’ve spent many angry, anxiety ridden nights awake thinking similar things. Or getting angry about scenarios that haven’t even happened.

^^^ This is all true. I stopped worrying about that sort of crap. The way I see it is if she doesn't get off, that's her problem. There are tons of fish in the sea. Pick up the Tinder or Plenty of Fish app and it's an endless supply. Life is too short to be losing sleep over whether or not you're sexually satisfying some ho (who has been with at least 3 times as many people as she says she has).