Can't Shake this Depression
Whats up guys?. I'am so totally miserable lately I feel like I've hit rock bottom. I keep thinking that I'm a failure, and that I should have more to show for myself, and that I should be in some kind of committed realationship with some girl right now; and I'm not. I feel alone and isolated; and anxious, like I want something anything, to happen to change things. I keep thinking I'm going to be working till the day I die and have nothing to show for it. I keep thinking about a bleak future. Also, I just found out that an ex-girl friend of mine ( who I absolutely loved to death) is taking time away from her boyfriend, and I keep thinking of how much I loved this girl and how in a second I would leap at the chance to get her back. But, then I pull myself into realality and force myself to realize, that this thinking is childish nonsense. And it's killing me. I feel like i have no enthusiasm for anything at all right now. I do have a strong belief though, that all this **** I'm feeling now is a Direct result of my PCT and clomid usage. I'm 12 days into my clomid therepy, and I can't wait for it end. I was wondering if any of you guys ever go through this when you run clomid. Because right now I feel like a girl having her period, and usually I'm like an emotional rock.