holy shit! today had to have been the worst anixiety/panic attack ive ever had. in the begining of the week our supervisor gave each of us an assignment to reasearch then make a presentation on friday(today) well mine wasnt even that hard all i had to do was explain what i had wriiten down on my peice of paper thats it! a few people gave their little presentations and what not then it was my turn,i hadnt been feeling anxious about it though to begin with so i wasnt all bundled up with worry. ok so its my turn the first thing that happends i turn flush then i could barley swallow then when i started reading my notes i started to gasp for air in the middle of the sentence. i spitted out 1 more sentence before i got up and walked away cause i thought i was gonna choke, i coulnt say 4-5 words i had no wind,i just left my coworkers there sitting wondering wtf is going on,
i never ever in my life did that before sure i geta little nervous when i talk in front of a group but i always stick it out no
matter what even if i have to start making up lies as long as i keep talking. HOWEVER im not blaming all this on my use of anabolics heck im researching my next cycle as we speak, maybe i do have some underlying issuses who knows thats why i came to the conclusion to see a doc in the very near future just to "talk" to see if im running a-ok in the confidence department. if not then we will take it from there.
whole scenario lasted maybe 16-17 seconds tops but man what a blow to me. i do not feel defeated though i feel as if i have a great challenge ahead and to be prepared for what ever happends
sorry for taking up an anobolic thread, i know some of the guys out there hate non-steroid "talk" in here
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