i tried something new
i used up all my stash over the last 6 months so i would force myself to stay clean awhile. if i have aas at home its hard to stay clean for as long as i want because i end up getting back on sooner than expected
so now with nothing close by i am forcing myself to stay off for a few months and after 8 weeks i am starting to feel good. i am staying at 240(only lost 4 lbs) and feeling better than i have for a while---feel healther
hell i may even stay off longer than origional plans
another thing i like is not having anything in home ---takes that little bit of edge off so no knock on door one day
does anyone else ever feel this way--actually better when off