Hi
I have done 2 cycles this year, my first. One was sus/deca/dbol and the other was var/prop. I didnt get much out of either of them. In fact I was less weight after the pct of my first cycle, and the same weight after PCT of my second. I only gained a few pounds on my var/prop cycle but I guess I did lose a little fat too. Anyway they were bad experiences that cost me a lot of money, and a poor sex drive once done which I didnt like. After PCT on my 2nd cycle, my sex drive is now back up to almost normal. Ive had blood work done and will find out the results tomorrow.
Anyway the story is, Ive had a few problems with my left shoulder over the past yr or two. Ive never really given it more than a months rest and because of this, I think thats the reason why Ive always suffered with it. I also started to have a pain when using my left bicep (More inside the joint than the actual bicep).
At the end of my last cycle which I finished mid july this year, my shoulder and arm were causing a lot of problems. So much so I couldnt even do my warm up sets on the bench, and Biceps training was well out of the Question!
Its now been 2 1/2 months since really going to the gym. I told myself just to have a complete rest to let it recover properly as I dont want to have to quit training completely. Ive never had more than a few weeks of training since I started nearly 7 years ago! This has killed me.
I realise, I could have kept going and done stuff that didnt involve them, but, it didnt really leave much other than legs!! And, I play football twice per week anyway. Also, for both me and my training partner, its been an ideal time to have off because we've both had a lot on.
So, I am now in a state where I dont even want to go on the scales anymore. I know Ive lost mucle, and I also know Ive gained a little fat. I almost had my 8 pack before this! now I only have the 6 in the right light!
The thing is, I told myself, after the bad cycles I'd had, that they were a waste of money, gave me more body hair than I liked, and messed with my sex drive so much that I never want to do them again. But, soon I will be going back to the gym again. I feel terrible because Im no where near the size and shape I was before (Well in my head). I made it up to 91kg with really low BF and now Im around 85kg with increased BF!
I also know my strength will be lost even though I did really well before to get where I got. So, I am now thinking about doing the steroids again.
Obviously, I wont be doing them straight away. I want to have at LEAST 2 months proper hardcore, natural training again while I get back into the swing of things again. Then to start the cycle.
I am 23, currently around 185-187lbs, 5'10", and now around 12%BF. My arms, previous to being on cycle were 18", chest 48", thighs 26". I dont have a clue what they are now though and dont want to know!
Can someone please help me out with some advice as to what to do in my situation because I really feel bad about myself at the minute, I fell like everything is trying to knock me back down when I start getting somewhere.
Please advise on a cycle that will quickly give me the gains I had back. I want it to be simple, with no more than 3 compounds inc 1 oral (If needed). my last cycles i did -
first - 250mg sus EW, 200mg deca EW for 10 weeks, Dbol 30mg wks 1-4.
second - 525mg prop EW 1-11, Var 50 mg wks 3-10
I didnt notice any increase in strength, and my end resulting weight after PCT, I didnt gain anything, maybe a little on the second cycle but all that has been lost now. So, I would like to try in the regions of 1000mg test enth EW, maybe 500mg deca too, and dbol to start. Or any other ideas in those dosage regions please.
thanks
darren