I'll try to make this as quick as possible, because it's a long story, with many variables, so it's going to be vague. Let's just assume I have an optimal training regime, and an awesome diet, to make answering my question much easier.
For the last 3 years, I have attempted to put on muscle mass, however I can only put on fat mass. Strength gains aren't easy, and are very slow if any. I overtrain very easily with even a medium volume or too much cardio. I am 5'10, 159 lbs, with a 10% bf, and 19 years old. I don't have a muscular build. I am the skinny fat guy. Here are some pictures from 3 years. First I got fat, but then had to cut because people made fun of me, and then had surgery, and had to take time off.... I think I look alright in the 2nd to last photo, however my strength wasn't any better here, and the only thing different thing I was doing was pushups and hindu squats every night (although my pushups never increased in amount), along with serious jump-rope and MMA training (i burnt out eventually and had to stop):
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I don't want to use roids, but I'm assuming something isn't going right. I had a hormone test 2 years back, and everything came out normal. What's the deal here? Endos think I'm nuts going to see them for this type of issue, and I feel a little crazy myself going there for it. However, although I train as hard as possible, I simply cannot add muscle mass to my frame.
What am I to assume by this? Is there something genetically not right. I don't want steroid-like gains. I just want to make gains.
Someone recommended a low dose anavar, or equipoise cycle to help me out. I'm pretty well versed on steroids (as I've considered it plenty in my circumstance), and I know these definitely aren't anabolics you'd use standalone. And who knows if taking steroids would even work for me? It might? Would I keep the gains with any cycle recommended? Is it worth it to satisfy my ego?
I hope somebody here can convince me NOT to use steroids, because I don't want to. However the effort I've put forth into trying to bulk up, without having anything to show, it extremely frustrating, and discouraging. Any input would be greatly appreciated.