Real Depression & Mood Issues

[vein-x]

I finished a bulking cycle that consisted of 600mg of Test E and EQ about 2 months ago. I ran PCT, both Nolva and Clomid and dropped doses after the second week, like many boards protocols recommended. To this day I still have some pretty bad depression.

It may be the fact that I'm dieting right now, or that I haven't been getting a lot of sleep lately, but truthfully I think that I'm losing weight (good thing) and sleep (bad thing) because of the 'depression' I feel I've got right now. Here's the funny thing, my balls are back to about 90% and I get random erections too. From morning wood to jerking off, THAT'S all back to 'normal' so I know I'm ok in the sperm department, at least I think.

I don't even REALLY feel like typing much else out.. just that I don't look at things the same. Even after a solid PCT of Clomid I don't have the same emotions or personality. I'm quiet and can't voice my own opinion, not because I'm afraid but because I don't feel up to it. Like I can't stand by my own opinions..

Anyway to sum it all up, I need a little help. From what I've read there's a point in time where you're body FINALLY realizes it needs to produce it's own testosterone again and that's what I'm praying for. I figure I'll give it another 30 days (which would make it a total of 60 days post-cycle) and then search for a different option. Anyone know if HCG would work at this point so far off cycle? If anyone thinks it might help it's worth a shot. Thanks for any help and information. If you could post things you've done to get over any post-cycle drama I'd appreciate that too. Looking forward to my next cycle (with PLENTY of HCG next time...) but I want to make sure I don't kill myself before the time comes... and that's hardly a joke. Thanks again for any support.

vein-x

[daem]

For starters, everyone suffers from some emotional withdrawal of knowing that their cycle is going to end, or is over. It feels so great to be on, and the difference is night and day when off.

Your body still might be working to get the natural test production back in full, and you still might be experiencing some free floating estrogen in your system.

HCG now might not be a bad idea, and you'd probably only need around 5000iu's or so.

I don't think it would hurt at this point, and is cheap.

Tribulus might help as well, but I am cloudy on dosages.

[happy]

hang in there man theirs light at the end of every tunnel be happy with your gains and dont worry about loseing a bit of weight and size

[vein-x]

You mentioned free-floating estrogen and Tribulus, both things that can easily be taken care of. Trib from a local supp store and I've got 2 more bottles FULL of Nolva.

Tell me if you think this would work...

1 week of Clomid at 100mg/day + 5g Trib/day + 40mg Nolva/day (that's all in the same week)

Now I might run the Nolva depending on what's suggested (because I have plenty) but I didn't order enough Clomid to run for much longer than 5 weeks, and 4 are already ran.

Keep the advice coming guys, it really helps to know there are supporting members here. Thanks.

[testosterona]

i would try running l-dex at .25mgs ed for another 6wks or so. i hear it does wonders post cycle for test levels and estro suppression.

[happy]

how much clomid have you been using a day for your pct

[marcus300]

Ive had some bad times with the demons in my head, its all a mental state which you find hard to shake off,but you must remain strong i totaly felt 100% better when i introduce trib and a mild dose of proviron, its worth a try, best of luck.