Dude if you dont want to gain that much size but enough to look good you should just start out with some D-bol or even Anadrol they will put some size but more in strength and Anadrol you only run or 5 weeks before it levels off anyway. Why go through the risk of having your sex drive shut down when all you are really going for is little mass and higher strength. I would just do low dossage of d-bol anywhere from 15-30 mgs a day or even anadrol once a day... hope I helped some
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goodluck