Not sure what to do....HELP!

[TOOBAD]

Guys I am in the middle of my second test e cycle and this time I have added in tbol for the first 5 weeks at a very low dose. I am on my 6th week now and I have been battling with depression from the very beginning. I stopped the tbol today and I am hoping that will help but if not can I just end this cycle and say to hell with roids? My whole life is spiraling quickly down hill and I haven't even started PCT. Come to think of it, that is kind of how I feel, like I am right in the middle of PCT (lethargic, no motivation, irratible).

This did not happen the last time so I am hoping it is the tbol, but if not should I just stop it all together?

THIS SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[shifty_git]

What dose of test e you taking?
Taking any ancillaries?

There things going on in ya life to influence ya mood in general?

AAS act as a mood magnifier.. If things are that bad it maybe best to stop the cycle and wait till everything in ya life is back to normal.

[ChuckLee]

BTW test should give you a more sense of well-being...

[TOOBAD]

I am taking 500mg ew split up on mon & wed and I am also was taking liquidex but still has some sensitivity in my nipples so I switched to letro at .5mg eod.

As far as the things going on in my life, my job really sucks right now and it is getting me down...really bad! But I wonder if it is because of the substances I am taking???

I thought test was suppose to make you have that "false sense of well being" but I think yu hit the nail on the head when you said it was a mood magnifier!

Do you think I should see my family doc about getting some xanax or something to calm me down, I feel like I am on the verge of a nervous breakdown!!! seriously!

What dose of test e you taking?
Taking any ancillaries?

There things going on in ya life to influence ya mood in general?

AAS act as a mood magnifier.. If things are that bad it maybe best to stop the cycle and wait till everything in ya life is back to normal.

[Peducho0113]

I think it would be a good idea to see your doc so he can prescribe you something to calm you down and stay strong bro hope everything is ok very soon

[TOOBAD]

I thought about dropping the test down from 500mg ew to 250mg ew. Maybe the problem I am having is estrogen sides, but it seems as though the letro would take care of that. I also thought about increasing that as well, maybe to .5mg ed instead of eod.

Any suggestions?

[PT]

i have run many, many cycles at different doses and i have never been depressed. have you ever had depression problems before? maybe this is a problem with you and not the steroids

[youngerlion]

not much test experience but i agree with the other assesments. test generally makes me feel happier and generally good natured.

[shifty_git]

i have run many, many cycles at different doses and i have never been depressed. have you ever had depression problems before? maybe this is a problem with you and not the steroids

I agree.

Like i said b4, AAS can act as a mood magnifier..

Like when you first cycle and you see great gains you get catapulted into an even better mood..

If your an a-hole you become a bigger a-hole....

Steroids wont give you a certain feeling on there own, but can make your general emotion feel more intense.

Have you noticed if it became worse when taking the letro? A 2 low estro level might also not help with the inbalance.

Id suggest seeing ya doc, maybe even for just a session to talk about what problems you have in ya life right now.

Try to keep ya head up and remember when there's a down there's an up to follow.

[TOOBAD]

That is good advice bro...I appreciate that. I have always fought with depression, off and on, just never on a cycle???

I talked to the wife today about it and she has just about had enough of it too. I guess I ambringing her down with me. I really didn't think it was all THAT bad but I guess it is.

So I might go see a dr tomorrow, maybe see what she thinks. I just need something to mellow me out. I worry every single minute of every single day about shit I can't even control. The biggest thing right now is my job because I am in sales and the economy sucks right now so I could very well loose my job.

One more thing, should I disclose to my dr that I am in the middle of a cycle right now? I don't want to get in to any trouble!

[shifty_git]

I went through a very low patch in the past, and i can honestly say the best way of dealing with it is talking to people and laying ya cards on the table for people to see.

May feel like ya having to drop ya pride cause 'us males' are expected to deal with things, but its being more of a man talking about it and taking that route, as that IS the way to deal with it so it gets it sorted.

If your doc doesn't know you juice i see no point in telling them in this situation.
Most likely that they have a closed mind to AAS and they will straight away blame that without looking deeper to the real problem and helping you through it.

Tell ya wife ya worries and that you need her support, and tell her exactly how you plan on dealing with it all.
When they know and there not 2nd guessing there going to get less stressed at you and not feel alienated.

Obviously ya job has uncertainties in it at the mo, but try and get rid of any other uncertainties by being honest and coming up with a game plan.

[TOOBAD]

Well I went to the dr today, she prescribed me some type of muscle relaxer to calm me down a bit. She wanted to get my bloodwork done but I asked her to wait a couple more months.

One concern was my blood pressure, it was 132/100. I am feeling a little better today and I believe it is because the tbol is just about out of my system. That shit sux!!!!!!!!!

I think I might stop my cycle, cold turkey, and get my bloodwork done in about 3 weeks so I can start trt. Looks like that is the best bet! Besides, Lion is out of clomid/nolva and my other company I use does not flavor theirs so it is god awful!

[shifty_git]

Well I went to the dr today, she prescribed me some type of muscle relaxer to calm me down a bit. She wanted to get my bloodwork done but I asked her to wait a couple more months.

One concern was my blood pressure, it was 132/100. I am feeling a little better today and I believe it is because the tbol is just about out of my system. That shit sux!!!!!!!!!

I think I might stop my cycle, cold turkey, and get my bloodwork done in about 3 weeks so I can start trt. Looks like that is the best bet! Besides, Lion is out of clomid/nolva and my other company I use does not flavor theirs so it is god awful!

Good to hear ya gotta plan.

Wait to see if the meds from the doc help, most those kind of meds take a while to have a good effect.

Keep an eye on ya blood pressure, one of those home digital BP monitors are a good idea.

Take care on not doing a PCT to get HRT, might end up with some strange looking levels which might confuse the doc to the real cause of feeling low.

Might be a good idea to cut ya cycle short though and make sure your ok before starting another one.

Keep ya head up though and at least realise your taking steps to get the whole situation sorted rather then letting it spiral out of control.