i have been out of the gym for about 5months and just now got back in. I have been in and out over the years,more out than in since i worked as a steele erector most of my life i have always been in good shape.For the past5 years i have been a project manager for a local constuction co. so my abs have whent to a pot belly and my muscle has withered away under about 25pound of body fat.I am also on a anti seizure med called dilantin. I fractured my skull when i was about 22 and had 3 or for seizures when i was first released from the hospital.Due to the head injury i am told i will need this medicine the rest of my life to prevent seizures although i have been free of an attack for over 10 years.I have used various drugs since then but stopped using when i was married to my wife 3 years ago .I recently bought some winstrol and dbol from a friend but i am scared to take it because i have read so much stuff that i dont know what to take with it or if i should not take it at all or take test first with something else .Also the man tit thing and all the anti this and that that i have no idea what to take or do . Someone please try to help me out i am 34 5-11 and weigh about 196 . i would like to be about 180 - 190 bulky and ripped please help if you can with a little guidance so my first time is done right .