Hi everyone. I have only posted on this board once before but I seriously need help. This is a very long story, so I hope someone will read about my situation and help me. I made a stupid mistake and I need help in fixing it. ANY help would be greatly appreciated. So here it goes...
About 5 months ago, I was talking to this kid in my school who started telling me that he knew a way to grow taller than youre supposed to be. He told me all this stuff about a drug called letrozole. He said if I took it every day for 18 months, I would grow 2 inches taller than my doctor said I would be. He said it might work even better for me because I was a later grower than everyone else in my grade, and that it works best when your in your big growth spurt, which I was going through at the time. He seemed like he knew what he was talking about so I went online and found some studies proving exactly what he said.
Even though I knew about the side effects of it, the idea of being over 6 feet tall was tempting enough that I didnt really care. So then I bought the letrozole from AR-R and started taking 2.5 mL a day.
At first, there were very few side effects and the ones that I did experience, werent that bad. My sex drive was still decent, joints a little achy, but nothing painful. But after a little while, dont remember exactly how long, I started noticing some rapid changes in my body...rapid even under pubescent standards. The hair on my lower legs started getting longer, thicker and darker at a ridiculously fast pace, and before I knew it, I had thick knee and upper leg hair...all in a matter of about 2.5 months. My hair was growing so fast, I remember times sitting in class that I would feel a tingling sensation in my legs, and I had a feeling it was the hair growing. My pubic hair got darker and thicker and spread like f**kin wildfire and I started shaving my upper lip hair every other day, up from once every two weeks. My acne gradually became 10 times worse than before, and cream wasnt helping at all anymore. But the most noticeable effect was the masculinization of my upper body and extreme muscle growth--only working out once a week. Everybody was so shocked to see how mature my body was becoming, because before I started the letrozole, my shoulders were no broader than a 12 year olds, and I had the biceps of nicole richie. My friends started joking about me juicing (they had no idea I was taking the letro), and I just told my parents that I had been doing heavy lifting every day after school (when they werent home). Oh yeah, and by now, my sex drive was very low.
(I actually had a lot more sides than the above but I wont get into those now.)
At first when I started seeing what was happening to my body, I just told myself that the letro was naturally increasing my testosterone and was naturally speeding up the process of puberty. Then as days went on, I started to become skeptical. One thing I learned was that estrogen contributes to muscle growth, so I asked myself, if I was killing my estrogen, why would I be gaining so much muscle? Also, I researched that letrozole slows growth, but doesn't stop it, so why hadnt I grown one millimeter in 3.5 months? I compared all of my sides to the sides of letrozole, and saw some, but few similarities. That got me thinking that what I had been taking wasnt what I thought it was. Then I compared all of my sides to the sides of most steroids and saw a ton of similarities. (not saying AR-R isnt legit, im just skeptical.)
Because of my skepticalness, I spent the next month lowering the dosage to an eventual .2 mL, once a week. I haven't taken any letro in the past 2 weeks and I'm freaking out about what has happened to my body and my hormone levels, especially because now, my sex drive is totally dead, obviously not healthy for a kid my age. Right now, stunted growth is the least of my worries as Im most worried that I have f**ked up my body for the rest of my life and will have to be on hormone replacement therapy till I die.
Please, I know I have made a huge mistake in doing what I've done, but I am extremely depressed about the situation and dont know what to do or where to turn. Right now, im just praying that there is some way to get my body functioning back to normal, but I need help getting there. Again, any help would be greatly appreciated.
Thankyou.
Originally Posted by Big
