Been gone for 5 years - Lots of ups & Downs - How is this cycle?

[Barbellman]

I havent used AAS since god now looking at my older posts 2004-2005. During one of those last cycles someone unfortatently introduced me to oxycontin. I've heard all the horror stories on here of guys getting into pain medications. After a few months i didnt even go to the gym period. That was the start of a 4 year intense drug addiction filled with arrests, a loss of almost $250,000 and my credit being raped. Now im entering in the new year with almost 2 years in the right direction and I'm just so mad at myself i feel like i've had the ultimate wool pulled over by my own self but anyway I wanted to really get into a cycle that'll put some muscle on me and get back into a shape i was before. I know im probably jumping a bit here but I want to get back into the swing of things

I've been back at the gym for 3 months now. My bodyweight when i started was 290 23-25%(not sure i would say 25%) (i used to be 240 solid 13-14% if that). I'm back down to 255. so i'm at a crossroads i know i could spend few more months but I was never that super lean type of guy i just wanna get some muscle back on here.

The cycle is gonna be simple:

1-12: 500mg of test enth
Clomid pct after

I'm thinking of 1-4: 30mb of some oral but i dont know if its really worth it..

Thanks guys and it's good to be back on these boards in exchange for the pain/drug boards i spent years on before coming back here! lol

[Far from massive]

Coming from a simalar background and being clear of it for 10+ years let me say welcome back! I am glad you waited 2 years to consider it as even if you drug usage never progressed to needles anything like this in early recovery is risky. I will let some of the more experienced members chime in on the cycle advise.

[shennen]

Oxy got me too, doesn't sound as bad as you but it was bad. Welcome back, get you bf down more before using aas, you'll be much happier w results

[in2shape]

me personally id hold off man, get training more, get diet right, keep creating good habbits etc, id be willing to say that if u come from an addictive background as uve stated, u could end up abusing gear in the sense u may want to extend your cycle to 16 weeks 20 weeks b4 u know it uve been on a year,(possibly) and the fact youll be playing with needles and possibly tabs if u run your orals u just dont know what that could trigger eg re-lapse etc and un do all your hardwork youvce achieved .... seem you were gone for so long 5 years is quiet a while in any form of addiction i personally wouldnt be willing to risk the 2 clean years after coming out of something like that( im sure it was terrible 4 u ) even on a just in case basis ,,,, id focus on staying mentally strong and focused in getting diet and training together and not try and rush things it would be 4 your own bettermentand youd thank yourself in the long run ...

on another note cycle does look fine you could just run it 4 10 weeks dont have to do 12 weeks also clomid id run 150/50/50/50 and add nolva 20/20/20/20 also keep arimidex on hand 4 bloat gyno etc whilst on if you choose trun it ...

well done in been clean for a while now fuk your finances youve lucky youve left with your life !!!!

[coonhunter]

Good job at being clean. man I know that isnt easy. My dad has been in and out of rehab and he has legitimate pain. He broke his back in 4 places and gets in over his head with the meds and checks himself in when he thinks he is going to od. Anyway the cycle looks fine but you really have to check that against the risk of abusing. You know you better than anybody

[pump3d]

Welcome back man. Congrats on being clean for this long. You could drop a little more bf% and see alot better results when you actually do the cycle. It'd make it worth more to me...

[Tigershark]

Welcome back and gratz on staying clean.