well, after i started working and eating right and doing this serious i started getting addicted and liking this lifestyle, eating big and healthy working out hard, and after seeing my friends compete in bodybuilding with their routines and stuff i got really into that also so, i am not sure if this is a future thingy

but i am doing my best and i really want to be natural believe me more than anything, but it is not easy and even with the right diet and training it will take years to get into a really good shape(bodybuilding)