Is test addictive? xpost from women's forum

[Until_It_Sleeps]

I have been using test for almost 3 years and feel miserable when I come off. Earlier this year I came off a cycle of dbol , test cyp and eq , and after going without for a week I was moody, depressed, angry and had zero sex drive. It got to where my boyfriend, who didn't like me using at first, was asking me when I was going to go back on. Two weeks later I couldn't find any test so went with dbol , deca and primo. Making good gains but still felt depressed, didn't want to be around anyone, didn't like sex. The boyfriend got me a vial of test cyp and after one week I was waking up looking forward to the day, eager to get to the gym, more pleasant to be around, and everything else went back to normal too.

The thought of having to come off scares me. I always said that if people become addicted to steroids they're really just addicted psychologically to the feeling of being big and strong. But it really seems to be physically noticeable with me, and only specific to testosterone . I don't notice a big difference in how I feel when I stop winstrol or dbol .



UPDATE: I stopped all drugs for about a month and was verging on the most severe depression I had experienced in a long time. Did a shot of cyp a few days ago (100mg) and the next day, had so much energy and happiness. My coach wanted me off all drugs for another 4 weeks and I told her, I'm not thinking this will help my progress; I just can't stand feeling this way anymore. So she said I could use a small dose for that purpose. Just in love with life now and everything feels great all the time. Guess it's obvious I'm going to be on this stuff for a while now.

[gixxerboy1]

so your a female running cyp, dbol and eq?

[Blergs]

so your a female running cyp, dbol and eq?

thats what Im getting from this also
EQ i could see , but Dbol ? i think you better not, stick with tbol, var, winny

[Until_It_Sleeps]

Yes I am a female and I have used just about everything...coach has me on tren , primo and eq now. Trying to get huge; don't care about sides as I've been dealing with them for years. I compete in bb, not figure/physique.

[gixxerboy1]

i honestly cant answer your question. Guys can feel depression and some of the symptoms you described coming off and when our test levels crash. But test is a main hormone for us. I dont know how a woman's body adjust coming off a cycle like that. Or

[NaturalJohnny]

What are your sides like and how do you deal with them? How big are you? Any pics? If I may be so bold.

[Until_It_Sleeps]

OK, I'm a loser and can't figure out how to post a pic.

Sides: the usual.

Acne - mild to moderate, I use a lot of over-the-counter products and that seems to be enough. Definitely nothing too gross. Since I wear scant gym clothes I sometimes need to use a coat of Dermablend if it flares up.

Voice - getting deep. I've always had a low voice, even in my teens, so it's not something that has everyone shocked, but some people have commented on it. I will intentionally pitch it higher when talking to others. I have had jobs where I needed to record weekly speeches and one of my editors told me, "I've been raising the pitch on your voice each week, and I know why."

Facial hair - probably the most annoying. I have to shave daily for appearance alone; twice a day if my face is actually going to be on someone. I'm going to start looking into laser treatments. I also have very fine blond chest and shoulder hair that was not there before, but that's so light I only remove that for a contest. Always had hairy arms; now I have hair on my hands as well.

I have not had my period for the entire 3 years.

Other sexual stuff: the one particular side effect often associated with female steroid use , for me, has been only temporary. I have also noticed that men love it.

I definitely do not have a male-looking face, but I will say I now look my age (mid 30s). I started using when I was 30 and people told me I could pass for 16. I got carded all the time. Now, when people guess my age they are right within a year or two, and I never get carded.

Right now my physique is such that if I don't cover it up, people will flat-out ask me if I am "on something" or "what I am taking." But in a business suit, people just remark that I "look like I work out" due to the width of my shoulders, veins in my forearms and the look of my calves, but will also tell me it's a good thing I don't look like "those other women bodybuilders who get all messed up on steroids ." So, fully clothed, people will believe me if I claim to be natural; in gym clothes it is obvious I am not.

[Until_It_Sleeps]

Oh. Looks like my pic showed up after all. That's probably one of my "bigger" back shots; this was after 12 weeks of sustanon and deca , then 12 weeks of winstrol . Not a very well thought out cycle but I have been able to keep that size.

[Until_It_Sleeps]

I was 132 lbs in this pic and biceps 13.5"; I am 138 lbs now and biceps 14". Shooting for a contest weight of 125, then want to gain at least another 10 for a show 6 months after that.

[< <Samson> >]

Looking hells of buff

Your are bigger than some of my guy friends. . .