Huge problem . Can i be saved? Miracle?

[1trust]

Isten i dont know where i shuld have posted this, heres the deal i was on week 9 of test e deca cycle deca 400 test 500 .. So iv fallen on some hard times i got a aggravated battery charge with great bodily harm to a peace officer, so my cars impounded my bail was 100 k ( 10 k to get out but still thats alot of money, so basicaly i blew threw al my savings even had to borow some . ( im 24 almst 25 btw ) so anyway during my time in jail my parents had access to my home, i was only locked up for 3 days before bond, first thing i was thinkin bout was cigarette , bang my girl, pin? No shit.. Well i get out i go home no pins no vials no clomid no nolva no aromasin, i talk to my father and he goes off saying that im a drug addict ima piece of shit and with pleasure he took the vials and smashed them and flushed the pills down... So im siting here ( oh btw i lost one of my two jobs ) so im sittin here its been 2 weeks since i pinned i do not have $ to pay my mortgage or my association even so . Basically i would like to know how bad is this going to be?.. Please dont say you should of or could of done this different. I didnt. Thats why i am where i am . Now i just wana kno whats gona happen, i see alot of acne poppin up, my johnson still works tho.. ? Help ? Brothers? Sisters? Anyone?

[Permabulk]

Hey buddy, that really sucks if your serious and I'm not calling you a liar. I think the Vet's / Mods are going to think your fishing though, fyi.

[Atomini]

I think you have a lot more to worry about and tend to than to be concerned about your anabolic steroid use or anything related to it...

[songdog]

Sucks 2b you bro.

[< <Samson> >]

Ouch, then some. . . . Get some PCT shit from Ar-r and run it.

[Metalject]

You may notice a little crash in 6-8wks or so but I wouldn't expect it to be horrible. At your age and being that your cycle was very mild it shouldn't have too much of a negative effect. Even so, you will feel it. Now, I say all that and I don't know you, so sure, it could be worse but you should still be OK in the long run. Your primary focus needs to be on getting yourself out of this mess you're in, scrapping money together, finding a good attorney, etc and that may mean another job and no gym for a little while if you want to keep your ass out of jai.

[adamjames]

Try and get some pct drugs or risk a long 6 month recovery or no recovery at all, at 24 you should recover natural levels but it will take a lot longer and 9 weeks is quite a long time to be shut down

in shit times comparisons help, think of someone getting torchered and raped somewere in the world right this second, now see how lucky you are to have such small problems

[AdrenalineJunkie]

Good advice so far, use it. Work on getting off it safely, not how you can get back on. Sounds like you've got a rough road ahead of you, don't make it worse. I feel for you bro, but these are the moments you find out who you really are by how you handle it. Goodluck with the outcomes

[1trust]

Guys i str8 the hell up apreciate everything you had to say seriously, im not worrying bout getting back on forget that, i have some huge ass problems ahead of me, my biggest worry was if no pct means like permanent huge damage?!!!!!! I really need to focus on life right now and not this but its botering the isht out of me as u can imagine, with my record and stuff, my lawyer told me i shuld be ok with 6 months to 2 years. So no im not playing, i got pulled over, drunk, with my 8 month pregnant girl, 1- driving on revoked 2- suspicion of dui 3- no insurance 4- speeding 5 improper lane usage 6 see now things get messed up i just baught this 03 expedition, and i told the cop listen just let my girl drive it home shes all good license and all, he said to me " what you think im your bitch too " i said wtf bro, he said shut the **** up and turn around, now mind u i took it as him callin my girl a bitch, rly?.!!!!! So when he pushes me to get up against the hood " he literally shoved me " i told him **** u BITCH and stuck the guy str8 up perfect jaw shot, he falls back knocks himself out for a sec by smacking his head on the concrete and gets 13 stiches .. I didnt go psycho on the guy but i protect myne and im not a killer but dont push me!.... Im about to be a father guys an im so tucking depressed its not even funnny man i worked 18 hours a day 5-6 days a week and after my girls pregnancy progressed i wanted to make it easier on her an baught a car, btw when i say drunk i had 2 tall stellas at tgi fridays eating with my girl.. So yeah man one of you said i was fishing? What do you mean? This is my life and i was hoping to find out what will the concequences be, and if i can naturally recover because there is no way i can spare any $ on anything other then my baby and my home ( babys gonna b a girl due semptember names gona b Madison ) now i would say my name and you can google all this, im guessing this is gona b a problem with finding jobs and shit oh man.. But your right iv already been thru so much and overcome so much isht, i got this guys.. Got ride or die tatted on my abs haha thank you and if you could further advise plz do.

[Metalject]

Again, at your age you should recover fine. It's definitely going to take some time...it may take a full year plus for you to recover your natural testosterone levels fully. During that time, odds are you'll hit a low point and you'll lose some muscle and strength and your body fat will probably increase but it the BF increase can be controlled if you keep your head on your shoulders. I know that may be hard with all you have going on. You'll probably also notice that your energy levels drain and you may lose a bit of your libido to boot. IMO, based on what you've said you'll probably hit that low point in about two months and it may last for a little while and you'll need to do your best to fight through it.

As several months go by past this low point, if your energy levels aren't coming back slowly and you don't start feeling a little better then you may need a little help. If you start noticing your immune system is not what it used to be this is a pretty good sign. If this ends up being the case, you may need some type of medical assistance such as a TRT program or some type of boost. Again, odds are at your age you won't but it is possible.

I'm not trying to scare you or anything, just laying out the timeline of possibilities.

[Judah]

Isten i dont know where i shuld have posted this, heres the deal i was on week 9 of test e deca cycle deca 400 test 500 .. So iv fallen on some hard times i got a aggravated battery charge with great bodily harm to a peace officer, so my cars impounded my bail was 100 k ( 10 k to get out but still thats alot of money, so basicaly i blew threw al my savings even had to borow some . ( im 24 almst 25 btw ) so anyway during my time in jail my parents had access to my home, i was only locked up for 3 days before bond, first thing i was thinkin bout was cigarette , bang my girl, pin? No shit.. Well i get out i go home no pins no vials no clomid no nolva no aromasin, i talk to my father and he goes off saying that im a drug addict ima piece of shit and with pleasure he took the vials and smashed them and flushed the pills down... So im siting here ( oh btw i lost one of my two jobs ) so im sittin here its been 2 weeks since i pinned i do not have $ to pay my mortgage or my association even so . Basically i would like to know how bad is this going to be?.. Please dont say you should of or could of done this different. I didnt. Thats why i am where i am . Now i just wana kno whats gona happen, i see alot of acne poppin up, my johnson still works tho.. ? Help ? Brothers? Sisters? Anyone?

Sorry to hear about your troubles, brother.Im part of a mentor program and work with a lot young guys that find them self in trouble with the law. Veyr very few are truley bad apples. Most are good guys that just need someone to inspire them to start making better choices. I don't you but I know chances are you are probably and alright guy, just had some bad luck along with some poor decision making. Some important things to remember:

1) Consider this experience a warning. A warning of whats to come if you continue making the choices you are. Decide now where you want to be in 5 years and dont make any decisions that will interfere that goal. This is what real men do, and there are very very few of us.

2) DO NOT beat yourself up over this for too long. Although people want to see you remorsful, and you should be, do not drag your dick around in the dirt for months. You can keep your head high while still being humble.

3) If you owe the cop an appology, you should appolgize. If he truly deserves one, you will instantly feel much better and will recover emotionally from this a lot faster.

As far as your PCT...many guys (not smart ones) run cycles without AI's and SERMS. Maybe your one of the lucky ones that doesnt experince bad sides, but dont count on it, Borrow money from someone so you can get on a PCT plan ASAP. Last thing you want while fighting your legal battle is bitch tits and a limp dick.

Run ALL advice your getting through your attorney before using any of it.

[SK1Viking]

All gains will be lost, especially after using Deca on cycle without PCT.

Have a friend spot you for the PCT.

[AD]

if you really can't get pct, and have to wait for natural recovery, its going to take months. but it will happen. during the months of low test, you're gonna feel like shit. low mood, low energy, low sex drive, limp dick, depressed, suicidal?... whatever.

whats important is you will need to constantly remind yourself that whatever you feel is due to the low test. its probably temporary, and you'll probably recover over time. when you're feeling like shit, remind yourself that. and Dont take it out on your girl, Dont take it out on your baby, Dont even take it out on yourself. its due to the low test, and it will pass.

[Metalject]

An important note know one's mentioned. You're out on bail and in a very precarious situation. The last thing on earth you want to do is make a stupid mistake and while it may seem simple and harmless any illegal activity your caught in will make the trouble you're in now seem like the happy rainy time dance from the love you long time girl at the massage parlor. You need to keep your nose as clean as humanly possible...I've seen so many guys in your situation get itchy for just a little test of Nolva to help them in a down time like this and it turn into a nightmare. All I'm saying is be careful and cautious more so than you've eve been. Still, your best bet is to ride it out. You could try getting some OTC test boosters and things like that, there are a few that will give you a little boost, it won't be magical but it's better than nothing.

[1trust]

Juda - bro thanks for being honest, really thank you straight up. I'm very very grateful.

Everyone thank you

Metal - Brother, apart from my girl i dont have to many people, well to be honest none, that would ever say something like that nor anyone to even talk too. I swear bro you just picked my day up, no h 0mo ofcourse but iv been murderin myself over this, and apart from verbally, i wrote the cop a letter explaining my deepest apolagies for what happebed that night and not as an excuse but why i chose to react the way i did. I really dont know what to do guys, considered leaving the states back to where i was born ( poland ), considered stupid shit like ending it all but **** all that i knocked that thought out of my mind real fast, considered just not going to court and living looking over my shoulder, ( i completely understand though i dont know if its the situation or what but iv been feelin exactly what you said, i have 0 energy, depressed to the point where it scares me that i dont even want to talk to neone, the only people i have here is my lady and my parents while hers tell me everythings gona worl out blah blah, my own blood tell me that ima piece of shit and they hope i get what i deserve... I duno guys im rly not a bad person, i try, im 24 and as soon as i got engaged i found out ill be a father and i went HARD at life, within 2 months i baught my own condo ( foreclosure but beautiful ) i was really looking to start a family here, now its 8:30 am and im sittin here on my couch trying to figure out what to do, rly dont kno man. No omo ofcourse guys but if anyone would have any further input my names Karl rogi469 at msn. Com. Why is it that when life takes offbone stupid thing can make everything crumble...?:/ i just hope ill b able to meet my daughter before i go, and the worst part about this is not what i have to go through l, but what they have to go through..... Im an idiot.....

[1trust]

Sorry but i do have some questions, should i stil be workin out at all? If so then will it do any good? Second can i help myself at all in thiz recovery process

[Capebuffalo]

Sorry but i do have some questions, should i stil be workin out at all? If so then will it do any good? Second can i help myself at all in thiz recovery process

I would continue working out. If nothing else keep you calm and clear you head.. Scrape a little cas together (pawn) and get pct. AR-R is reasonable and quick. I don't know what test you were running but if its a long ester you gotta couple of weeks. It was stupid. Its over . You can't change history. But you need to rewrite your future..

[calstate23]

Isten i dont know where i shuld have posted this, heres the deal i was on week 9 of test e deca cycle deca 400 test 500 .. So iv fallen on some hard times i got a aggravated battery charge with great bodily harm to a peace officer, so my cars impounded my bail was 100 k ( 10 k to get out but still thats alot of money, so basicaly i blew threw al my savings even had to borow some . ( im 24 almst 25 btw ) so anyway during my time in jail my parents had access to my home, i was only locked up for 3 days before bond, first thing i was thinkin bout was cigarette , bang my girl, pin? No shit.. Well i get out i go home no pins no vials no clomid no nolva no aromasin, i talk to my father and he goes off saying that im a drug addict ima piece of shit and with pleasure he took the vials and smashed them and flushed the pills down... So im siting here ( oh btw i lost one of my two jobs ) so im sittin here its been 2 weeks since i pinned i do not have $ to pay my mortgage or my association even so . Basically i would like to know how bad is this going to be?.. Please dont say you should of or could of done this different. I didnt. Thats why i am where i am . Now i just wana kno whats gona happen, i see alot of acne poppin up, my johnson still works tho.. ? Help ? Brothers? Sisters? Anyone?

Well shit, that sucks if you are truly serious. This past year has been UNBELIEVABLE to me, and not in a good way. If I posted everything that has happened to me in the last year know one would even believe me...Let's just put it that way.

Anywho, things can spiral down hill faster then a truck load of bricks if you let it. The only thing I can say is don't dwell on the sh*t that has already happened. Just focus on the things YOU CAN CHANGE and keep moving forward.....

[BigBadWolf]

If I posted everything that has happened to me in the last year know one would even believe me...

I'll believe you.