I am a 45 year old male and have never experimented with any steroids. I have worked out of and on for 25 years. I have no interest in serious body building. Only to look like and feel like I am in sold shape. At my best, I was 178 lbs (5'11") and about 11% BF. That was probably 3 years ago after 270 days of P90X. However I gained little size and my face looked a bit emaciated. I'd like to add some more significant size and lean out...I'm open to any advice and opinions as to how to get a bit more ripped without looking like a roid monster...just look great at the beach/pool and if it helps with libido, all the better...I was thinking about a simple 12 week cycle of testosterone then 2 weeks of nothing and then 4 weeks of Nolvadex....the cycle recommended on this site for beginners...more questions to follow for sure, but any advice is welcome.