Good To Be Here. Please Help.

**WVKing21** · 12-22-2012, 01:24 PM

What's up fellas? I'm Curtis & I'm 22 years old. I had a brother by the name of Scott King who used to post here a lot. He was a beast in the gym & loved working out. He got a lot of quality information from this site so I decided I'd try it out. His username was Sking101. In March 2009, he passed away. He was running a cycle of Test, I believe when he passed. He wrecked his Silverado one night, ran home from the scene, when the cops came to the door, he ran upstairs and shot himself. He was a Marine. His best friend shot himself four months earlier & his gf was in Vegas ****ing around on him. He was drunk. Idk if the test had anything to do w/ it but can imagine it did. I was 18 at the time. Hardest thing I've gone through in my life & ever will. Miss the shit out of him. I was 140 pounds at the time. I was too depressed to eat & was pretty hopeless for the first year. I'm 6'1". I finally kept praying to God for strength & finally got my skinny ass in the gym to start lifting...for my brother & for myself. Also, my ex & 2 year GF at the time cheating on me w/ black dudes helped my motivation too. I wanted to become better. I've been lifting for the past 2.5 years or so, & now I'm at 192 from 140. I go 5-days a week & my goal has been to get up to 200 pounds and bench 300 pounds. It's been hard. I need to eat more meals. I have been working for UPS the past month & they don't have time for lunch breaks. I bring a protein bar & sandwich but I hate it bc I'm losing weight. I ran dieselbolan (test booster) for a while, but I was running it wrong. Only taking 1 pill a day instead of 2. Just got off of it about 6 weeks ago. I reccommend it I felt like a beast on it. I'm very skinny & always have been. My veins popped out like an animal. I've lost some motivation/strength coming off of it & just got done w/ my PCT. I was wanting to run Test-E starting sometime in January. I took a pill called Propecia in 2011. I've been stressed out past for years so I've been losing my hair. It's the worst thing that ever happened to me. I totally lost sex drive & had ED on the pill. I was never warned this would happen. I'd be having sex w/ hot chicks in my apartment in college & couldn't maintain an erection. This is the most aggravating & embarrassing thing that can happen to someone. I couldn't lay it down like I used to. Thought it was whiskey dick at first then tried sex sober. Same thing. Eventually I looked up online side effects of propecia. What do you know, other people were going through same thing. Nobody believes me they think I'm an idiot. I'm currently prescribed to Cialis, which helps a little bit, but when I drink on it I cannot become hard. I'm a little better but that pill really ****ed me up. Memory loss, depression, etc. I was wanting to run a 10-week cycle of test E. I was thinking it may help my sex drive a little bit & help me feel like a man again, maybe reach my goal of 300 pound bench. I'd run 250 mg's on Monday & Thursday. Any reccomendations or comments would be appreciate. Thank you.

Bench: 265
Squat: 250
Dead: 315

**Lunk1** · 12-22-2012, 01:36 PM

Welcome Curtis...as a former Devil Dog myself please accept my sympothy for your loss. My heart is heavy after reading your story! It sounds to me like your having some diet issues that are hindering your gains. No amount of gear will fix that. One must eat to support gained muscle. Please honor your brother by being smart and reconsider AAS use for a few years until you have a fully developed endocrine system. Im sure he would have suggested the same!

Your ED issues can be a number of things including diet and rest, get some blood work done to see where your test and E2 levels are at!

**Misery13** · 12-22-2012, 01:49 PM

When it comes to ED issues it could be something as simple as combat induced stress, medications, and what Lunk posted. Talk to your doctor, get blood work done. Keep us posted please.

Your brother in arms. ( less than a year out from my retirement from the US Army )

**stpete** · 12-22-2012, 02:35 PM

Damn, sorry to hear that. Good to hear that you're staying positive and in the gym trying to be as healthy as you can. That's great and you've made some good gains. How does UPS get away w/not giving breaks? Haven't those Union asses heard it's against the law?

Anyway, ^^^^ agree w/those guys. If you haven't had blood work, i suggest you do so.

Good Luck

**clarky.** · 12-23-2012, 02:32 PM

Welcome mate. Hope you get the goals you are looking for im sure your bro will be proud of you what ever you decide to do.

**bigsiv** · 12-23-2012, 02:39 PM

That really was a sad story mate I hope your alright. I do think you are a little young for AAS and you could reach your goals without them. Nutrition is the key.
I'm not surprised you are have ED problems with what you have been through. But I'm glad to hear your in the gym it's the best therapy you could do.
Keep everyone posted on your next venture (hopefully you will hit the nutrition section)
Good luck buddy!

**magic32** · 12-23-2012, 04:36 PM

Quite a tale...sorry for the bad, and happy for the good.

Test E should help your libido, as many of your symptoms sound hypogonadic, but run it for 12 weeks (not 10 wks), with proper PCT. You may find that it helps the other problems as well. Like Lunk said, be sure to straighten out your diet, visit the Diet Forum and post yours for critique.

Best to you.

**gearbox** · 12-23-2012, 05:59 PM

Sorry for your loss.
Agree with above and proper pct is nolva and clomid for 4 weeks. You start 14 days after your last pin.

**auswest** · 12-23-2012, 06:09 PM

You guys have just Recommended a 22 year old to shut down his natty test production and development to help with ed......

I'm confused....

**bigsiv** · 12-23-2012, 06:37 PM

Originally Posted by auswest

You guys have just Recommended a 22 year old to shut down his natty test production and development to help with ed......

I'm confused....

Agreed he should stay away from AAS as well as shutting down natural test and fcuking his endocrine system in my opinion you need to be mentally prepared fir a cycle. At 22 and what he has been through AAS are the last thing he wants. Training, nutrition and counselling would be my advice. That's just my opinion

**boz** · 12-23-2012, 07:22 PM

My heart truly goes out to you and your family members for your loss. At your age I had a similar problem, thats because i did run a cycle but it was not the test it was when i ran tren i was never the same after it.

I would really advise you to stand clear from AAS use at the moment, not just because of you age factor mate, but also what you have been threw. Im sure aas wont help you deal with this any better, if anything it may worsen it mentally.

These compounds are not childs play and with every action there is going to be a reaction.

**losieloos** · 12-23-2012, 07:34 PM

Welcome my friend, keep your head up.

**Bio-Active** · 12-23-2012, 07:54 PM

Bro we need to focus on how you are going to fit food in to your day. One think I like to do is make chicken breast sandwiches on Ezekiel hamburger buns. You don't have to heat it and you can eat it pretty fast in between stops. Maybe some others can think if some quick food for you to eat? Sorry to hear about your recent events bro. Keep your head up