Hi, I joined this forum 5 months ago when I found myself in a terrible situation. I am 22. I havent contributed much to the boards, I mostly just post asking questions and getting info that relates to me. Although I don't have much knowledge, besides what I've learned here, I figure I can contribute by posting by experience, so hopefully young kids can read this and they don't bother posting asking if they should do pro hormones or steroids. Then everyone can save some time telling them not to. So here it is.
How pro hormones ruined my life:
My first experience came at age 18 when I took a 4 week cycle of magnadrol. It was legal at the time, but since has become illegal. I literally knew NOTHING about pro hormones and some meat head behind the counter at my local supplement store sold them to me anyways, even though it says "21 and over" on the counter. I bought them, as if I was buying a jug of whey protein, thats basically what it was to me. It was july, and I had just graduated high school, heading to prep school to play hockey in hopes of playing in college. I gained about 10 pounds of muscle and looked real good. The PCT I used was kickstart PCT, basically just formestane and tribulus. Obviously not the correct stuff, but I didnt know I just did what the guy told me. I was just finishing the 4 week pct when I moved to school, and I noticed I was so fatigued and could barely work out. I lost everything I had gained obviously. At the time I didnt know I was feeling slugish probably from being surpressed. I didnt even know what an HPTA was. Also, I got gyno 6 months later.
Next comes last summer at age 21. I took a 4 week cycle of "steel crushers" which were legal but now are not. SAME guy behind the counter, 3 years later. Told him I wanted to put like 5 pounds of lean muscle on, and he sold me those. Which I later found out after research that it was basically superdrol clone. Ignorant me, didnt bother researching till after the cycle when the sides came. I blew up like a balloon. I gained 20 pounds, mostly muscle, which is not what I wanted to do. In 4 weeks I gained 20 pounds and it took a toll on my body. The back pain was unbearable I could barely workout after the cycle. The back pain stayed persistant for about 4 months and got a bit better but still hurts sometimes. The estrogen build up was bad, my face was so bloated, and still is a little bit, a year later. I got these weird pouches of fat on my sides, probably from the estrogen, which are still there and probably there to stay, and my once lean and vascular body was then just a bloated soft mess. Again, all I did for PCT was kickstart. Gyno started to develop a few months post cycle. I did take nolvadex a month AFTER cycle, not right after, which took away my gyno from when I was 19.
At this point I don't think I had any mental side effects, but I was so regretful about my decision to take superdrol. My body was just massy and soft and I couldnt get rid of it no matter what I did. I even took a thermogenic a few months post cycle, and it didnt really help.
I bet my system never fully kicked back into gear after superdrol, because even though I was ok mentally, I was really tired and couldnt make any progress in the gym.
Now we come to this past april, age 22. I started getting the signs of gyno a few months after superdrol, and my body still had that girly shape to it from the built up estrogen from superdrol. I decided to take Arime stage 5 pct. Seemed mild enough, I read it was mild and good for leaning out. Was told it shouldnt really affect HPTA and you dont need a PCT, even though it has 10 mg of epistane in it.
So I start taking it, and the sensitive nipple goes away within 3 days. Then day 5 I start feeling real strange, and eventually stopped taking it on day 10. I completely lost my ability to feel anything emotionally and lost that sense of well being. The brain fog followed, and for the past 5 months, I've been stuck in my head without emotions,feeling like Im trapped in a cage. Its the worst pain you can imagine. The epistane shut me down, LH and FSH at 1 , and Total T at 315. 5 months later, and after 4 weeks of prescribed clomid, LH is 3, and FH is 2, and total T 490, but for 5 months later and clomid, those numbers arent great. If the LH and FSH don't rise, I will probably have to do TRT. I am in the prime of my life, and had the world at my fingers, and am living a great life, but I can't enjoy it. Im watching it pass me by because of some physical issue going on in my brain, and its probably all my own fault.
The point is you don't need to be shooting needles and pumping loads of testosterone into your body to mess yourself up. You can buy some 40 dollar legal drugs at a store and do worse damage. I urge all young people to reconsider and wait till they are older. I urge everyone to hopefully educate themselves so much that they know exactly what is happening in their bodies and no the risks.
I took some stupid little pills 3 times in my life. In total it has cost me thousands of dollars this summer in doctors, blood labs, medical bills. It has cost me my vitality, and my life. I am struggling everyday just to keep the pieces in my life together as I try to recover , but it is the hardest thing I've ever faced. And what do I have to show for it? A extremely average body, some bloating in the hips, chest and face and some back pain.
Please stay away until you are older, hopefully this scared some people straight. I was just a regular, fun loving kid, who did these drugs just for fun basically, not knowing the seriousness. You dont need to be shooting 1000 units of T a week to do damage.
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Originally Posted by AnabolicBoy1981
