***4 years Str8 on STEROIDS.. Addicted need help!!

Im make this short as possible... First off every month passes by for last three years I been wanting to post this to get help not only dr help but help from community will its time...

January 1st 2008 I was i was 275 pounds mind you been heavy my whole life so at that point i decided to loose wight so i dieted and dieted hard a year later i was sick no nutrition nothing and i got down to 137 pounds with no muscle mass none i lost it all so i went to a Dr to get blood work he found my test levels at 82 yes 82 witch was due to lack of nutrition so he put me on a androlgel and 5 months after that i was huge wight in at 175 nearly 13% body fat was super happy and i went in for a check up. Dr said you look good and he said i would no longer need the androgel at this point i was bummed out i never felt so great in the gym my whole life so at this point i did research closes thing i found to it was some oil know as test E.... I never knew what steroids really was until then.


So I got a local connection in 2010 and bought my first bottle and started out with that and then few months later found a new source and started with test e and deca will guys scence..

***OCTOBER OF 2010 i have been on test no lower the 500mg of any kinda test Im on tren id say 6 months out of the year nearly did every mix and combination of everything deca dbol tren masteron androl t3 clen primo everything and i haven't stopped scence then i mean never i always been on high dos of test. My blood levels been threw the roof, If seen amazing gains over the year got up to 200lbs 12% body fat and 165lbs 9% body fat I seen it all NOW. I NEED TO STOP I tried recently and within a week i felt like my whole world was just crashing down i mean felt like my parents died i lost my all my money i felt like all this pressure for no reason anxiety went threw the roof i don't know what to do. The DR that i currently have on hold says to stop everything for 2 weeks and he will put me on andro gel 1.62 or some bull shit i don't know what to do i cant go a week without doing it i mean its crazy i need your help please help.

how old are you now? Profile says 24. I think you need to get to a endo asap. You might have messed yourself up proper. There have been a couple of threads about long term use of aas. Have you used any AI or HCG?

Quote:

---

Originally Posted by BigTahl

how old are you now? Profile says 24. I think you need to get to a endo asap. You might have messed yourself up proper. There have been a couple of threads about long term use of aas. Have you used any AI or HCG?

---

Ill be 28 in January.. I never used any ai or hcg never.. I've done some crazy doses of gear I'm kinda starting to freak out about stoping I know I need to stop I need all the help please. What do you mean mess myself up proper?

I wouldn't beat myself up about what you have done man. What is in the past is in the past. It's super gnarly, but it's time to move forward. If I was you, I would personally taper my dosages and ween off. I would drop anything but test immediately and cut your test dose in half. Then in two weeks half again. Get to around 200mgs weekly and quit. You can either go see an endo, get your blood run, and you might end up on TRT. Or you can blast hcg with clomid and see if you can revive your natural production. Some will disagree with me, this is just what I would do.


What I wouldn't do though is trip out on what's done. What you did is very wreck less and stupid, but people have done worse. Please update this thread on what you decide. You might be helping more people than you know. Good luck bro

Quote:

---

Originally Posted by Simple123

Ill be 28 in January.. I never used any ai or hcg never.. I've done some crazy doses of gear I'm kinda starting to freak out about stoping I know I need to stop I need all the help please. What do you mean mess myself up proper?

---

For competion purposes, have you won any shows?
Or you doing all this to look good naked

Quote:

---

Originally Posted by Simple123

so he put me on a androlgel and 5 months after that i was huge wight in at 175 nearly 13% body fat was super happy...

---

I think that's your answer.

I'm in agreement with the drop everything but the test approach since you still want to "feel" good as you taper down.

My recommendation is that you get yourself down to 100mg/wk (injected every 3.5 days) alongside HCG at 350IU X 3/week. This would be a TRT approach, and I feel it would be a good baseline to allow you to judge how you feel. I also recommend you run this for at least 6-8 weeks as you want to allow the HCG to get your nuts working again before you stop.the test.

Keep in mind that you will loose strength, do don't get depressed as you're now mimicking a natural hormone environment. Once you drop the test, keep with the HCG, and get blood work done 5-6 weeks after dropping test. In my opinion, at that point your doc can judge whether TRT is the way to go, or if you bounced back

Geez a 4 year cycle thats a long time. If you want to try a regular PCT then you should stay on cycle for 6-8 more weeks while using hCG then run a nolva + clomid PCT. The other PCT option I know of is the power PCT program by Dr Michael Scally.

Quote:

---

Originally Posted by Simple123

Ill be 28 in January.. I never used any ai or hcg never.. I've done some crazy doses of gear I'm kinda starting to freak out about stoping I know I need to stop I need all the help please. What do you mean mess myself up proper?

---

Your HPTA / Endocrine System is what I was talking about. Austinite wrote about it in this thread so I dont need to re-explain it. http://forums.steroid.com/anabolic-s...ffect-you.html

Quote:

---

Originally Posted by numbere

Geez a 4 year cycle thats a long time. If you want to try a regular PCT then you should stay on cycle for 6-8 more weeks while using hCG then run a nolva + clomid PCT. The other PCT option I know of is the power PCT program by Dr Michael Scally.

---

This ^^^.

You have any before and after pics of your progress ? Sorry man I hope everything gets better for you

Op i have a friend that was on for 7 years straight. He had a hard time coming off. But once he got on trt and stabilized things got better. In his case he had to get on an anti depressant also. In my opinion he would of had to anyway. My best advice is to take a step back. Try to relax, your still alive and know you need to make changes. Drop everything but test. Then after 2 weeks start dropping your test. After you get 50 post pm me. I might be able to help you alittle, i too use to be heavy(328lbs) and used too much aas when i first started. Stay strong and do what you need to do. Feel free to pm me.

I've been on for 6 years by choice. I'm 12 years older, though, and I stick to TRT doses with occasional low dose cycles thrown in.

If it turns out you can't get your natural testosterone back, it's not the end of the world. It means you'll be on TRT for the rest of your life. That's not a bad thing in my opinion. You shouldn't normally need it in your 20s, but I think most guys should be on it once they get into their 40s and 50s. It makes a big difference in quality of life as you get older.

I stayed on 5 months and it killed me....couldn't imagine 4 years...get yourself some help bro. Good luck