Need severe help!

[Big z]

I'm experiencing some severe sides from my cycle atm. Here is my lifting background I been lifting for the last 14 years ( 10 years natural 4 years Enhanced ).
my obsession with steroids began 4 years ago when I decided to compete in bodybuilding. Back then I was young and stupid all I cared bout was size and strength, I trained hard 6-7 days a week eat like horse and slept like a baby and I thought to myself why change what is working? hence first cycle lasted 3 years straight... I remained on low dose 250- 750mgs of test a week for 3 years kind like what u call a cruise dose now days. everything was fine till one day I started to suffer from severe insomnia and anxiety while running only 250mg of sus a week, forcing me to get off steroids, I did my pct took 1/2 year off the gear only to realize my natural test isn't coming back I completely fked myself.. I went back on another low dose (250 -500 mg test e ) cycle for 8 month due to the fact I can barely coop with life with such low test level. Again I had to get off cause I had weird sides like internal trembling and sluggish foggy thoughts this times 3 month off and my test is at all time low 4.7 (normal 14-33). I had blood tests done just before I jumped on my current cycle everything was good cept for high liver enzyme first 2 weeks I used test Prop 50mg eod was feeling great till week 3 insomnia hot flashes came back hits me really hard I had to use prescribed sleeping pills,
I thought it must be the test p and high estrogen level so i switched to test E 400mg a week + arimidex .5 mg eod. but didnt seem to be helping much on top of insomnia the sluggish internal trembling and sensitive to lights dizzy symptom came back again... So as you can see I am in a lot of trouble here all because of stupid steroid abuse over the years. Now the question is have anyone experienced something similar so far I can only think of 2 things high Estrogen level or thyroid hormone is out of whack. o and the GP here are no help they know nothing about steroids. as you can see I am at a X path here either get off and live on super low test or stay on cruise level and feel like crap! either way i am screwed....
so if anyone here got some good advise I'm happy to hear it and please don't flame me I already know where I stand.

[Mr.BB]

Why don you try an actual trt dose??? Above 150mgs its more of a low dose cycle for most ppl.

Try 100mgs per week together with hcg 250uis twice a week.

[Big z]

I don't know why I am getting so much sides with such low dose.. I am not sure if its steroids in general or just test that's causing this. I was thinking tapering it down to 100 - 200mgs and throwing in something like masteron to lower estrogen or like Mr BB said taper it down to 100 mgs for few weeks then blast HCG and Nova and finger crossed my nature test comes back to me..

[KBall32]

250-500 is not a low dose agree with BB above. I assume you hade blood work done as you have your test level. E2? My guess as I have experienced these symptoms before, is that your thyroid is out of whack. Did they test TSH, T3, T4? There are guys that can analyze your blood work much better than I, but that is necessary due to have an idea what is going on. That high of a dose for that long would definitely throw your endocrine system out of whack. One other thought is that it if your BW is good, it could be Anxiety/Depression disorder, and not related to gear..

[Big z]

First I appreciate the reply guys keep it coming! even when I'm type this I feel lightheaded and eyes seems to be really sensitive to light.. anyway BW as in body weight or blood work? I'm currently sitting at 130kgs with somewhere around 20% body fat. Got my bloods done before this current cycle every thing is in check except for High liver enzyme AST 66 ( normal 10-40) ALT 121 (5-40) I guess those numbers are high due to my vagarious training routine and high protein diet. thyroid is ok before this cycle but I should get them done again as I do suspect they do play apart in how I feel. Estrogen wise I never got it checked since every time I ask to get it done my gp always assure me theres no need to...

[Back In Black]

Get off, run a power PCT and get bloods 8 weeks after the end of that. If you are then clinically low see an expert in TRT.

Where do you live?

[Big z]

I live in Australia and kinda hard to find a doctor that deals with steroid user like me here.. What does of pct do you guys think I should running around at my situation?

[Back In Black]

Google Dr Scallys power Pct.

You have a health service there and TRT is prescribed in the form of reandron. It's up to you if you want to tell them you have been a steroid user. At least it will be free and you will have a professional looking after you.

[Big z]

god this is killing me trying to get off! 3 days straight insomnia chuck on arimidex .5 eod head gets all lightheaded and dizzy.

[Simon1972]

Agreed with all above.
Run a pct. Wait 8 weeks, get a gp to test your testosterone, tell him about your abuse. You won't suffer insurance issues in oz, get on your free trt. Don't abuse again.

You've been on juice for 4 years and only now signed up, where have you gotten your advice from ?

[Big z]

young and stupid mate all I can say... whole bunch of meathead in my gym doing the same thing. Question regarding Trt, is there by any chance if later in future I decided to compete again or this is yet end of bodybuilding? pretty sure if I do my own cycle in the near future the doc would get me off the trt...

[Simon1972]

young and stupid mate all I can say... whole bunch of meathead in my gym doing the same thing. Question regarding Trt, is there by any chance if later in future I decided to compete again or this is yet end of bodybuilding? pretty sure if I do my own cycle in the near future the doc would get me off the trt...

Sounds like you ain't desperate enough yet for our help. Best of luck in your body building.