paranoid about doing steroids

[steroidparanoia]

i have been on the juice for about 3-4 months consecutively for the 1st time in my life. some I get off the street, some off the net. I was wondering if yall experience the constant paranoia of thinking people are suspicious of you being on steroids and also about being arrested. it has gotten to the point where I think gonna do my pct now and come off for a while. also, do jobs test for steroids? I don't want to test positive for roids. I'm about to get a pretty damn good job. any input would be appreciated.

[73rr]

First welcome to the forum

U have been on gear for 3 or 4 months? Do u not now how long? What's your cycle plan?

MOST jobs don't pay for a drug test that goes that deep.

Suse ppl will now that your on gear. It's kinda a unspoken truth. S**t if your lifting properly and eating right and your natty ppl will still think your on gear!

I like to believe cops have better things to do then mess with ppl that are trying to look good

To add, I think ordering can be stressful. But I would worry about my money more then being busted

[Euroholic]

Not to appear visually rude but paranoia is probably just your personality. do you really think everytime you step out of your place of residence someone is waiting to pounch on you because you look like you have synthetic hormones in your system? As long as you don't look like a crack head walking down the street people could NOT care less.

And also you wrote you have been on cycle for about 3-4 months? Do you not even take notice of what goes inside you? time to come off and pct maybe?

[steroidparanoia]

Not to appear visually rude but paranoia is probably just your personality. do you really think everytime you step out of your place of residence someone is waiting to pounch on you because you look like you have synthetic hormones in your system? As long as you don't look like a crack head walking down the street people could NOT care less.

And also you wrote you have been on cycle for about 3-4 months? Do you not even take notice of what goes inside you? time to come off and pct maybe?

I know what goes inside me. its just that in powerlifting the guys I know never come off. I do understand the consequence of never being able to naturally produce testosterone again. I'm just thinking that since its my first time doing it I should at least prove to myself I can do a pct and also not take the risk of potentially testing positive for my job. I'm leaning that way but just need some reinforcement lol

[steroidparanoia]

I should say one of my liver enzymes is slightly elevated, my systolic bp is elevated, hdl low ldl high which I believe to be steroid related.

[Euroholic]

You on hcg? What are you using to control estrogen?
What are you taking?

[steroidparanoia]

You on hcg? What are you using to control estrogen?
What are you taking?

the cycle started with test only (cyp)
then I got crazy and added in tren ace, drol, halo, dbol
even shot a vial of deca which gave me sexual dysfunction so I stopped it (yes I know it stays in system for up to 18 months which scares the shit out of me)
I do not have hcg or estrogen blockers but can get them easily cheaply within a week which is what I am planning on doing.

[steroidparanoia]

basically 500 mg test per week. since adding tren, 200 mg per week. 50 mg drol , 20 mg dbol, 10 mg halo daily

[Mp859]

basically 500 mg test per week. since adding tren, 200 mg per week. 50 mg drol , 20 mg dbol, 10 mg halo daily

are you pissing blood yet?

[steroidparanoia]

are you pissing blood yet?

no. should I lower the doses or come off all orals? ive been doing those for about a month

[steroidparanoia]

to be honest here, I have this dream of being a great powerlifter but it feels like its coming at one hell of a cost. not really sure where to go from here. I had a good training foundation, diet foundation, rest/recover foundation going in. also had tried pretty much every legal supplement out there.

[Mp859]

You should come off everything. Pct. then go from there.

[steroidparanoia]

You should come off everything. Pct. then go from there.

yeah I agree. on the outside I look great but on the inside things are going in the wrong direction. cholesterol and bp are nothing to play with and neither is the liver. I have even had to go on 2 cholesterol pills it go so bad. diet played a role for sure though but its not the only culprit.

[steroidparanoia]

I do know one guy well who has been on for 7 years straight but hey to each his own I guess lol

[SuperNova93]

the cycle started with test only (cyp)
then I got crazy and added in tren ace, drol, halo, dbol
even shot a vial of deca which gave me sexual dysfunction so I stopped it (yes I know it stays in system for up to 18 months which scares the shit out of me)
I do not have hcg or estrogen blockers but can get them easily cheaply within a week which is what I am planning on doing.

I don't know why anyone else hasn't said it yet, but you need to get off of everything and start a pct before you do some serious damage, if it hasn't been done already. Putting that many substances into your body, on your first go?! That's practically suicide. Who told you pinning tren, test, deca and taking three orals, was a good idea??

[SuperNova93]

turns out MP said it and I just missed it!

[steroidparanoia]

its been 3 months as of today. test the whole time. tren and the 3 orals the last month. I'm setting up a PCT now.

[steroidparanoia]

the deca was one vial only. I'm never doing deca again. no real need anyways.

[steroidparanoia]

one thing that I think will save me is the internet stuff I think was underdosed. I'm getting bloodwork done soon.

[SuperNova93]

definitely get into that pct and then take a lot of time off cycling to recuperate. Your body will definitely need time to come back from that. 4-5 months(or longer) when you're ready to start again if your bw is good to go, make sure you have everything you need to protect yourself while on. HCG, an AI, Nolvadex, Clomid, and if you're using a 19-nor like Tren again, Caber or Prami just incase. After your PCT you should definitely get bw done to know where you're at in terms of damage if there is any.

Good luck! Cheers mate.

[steroidparanoia]

definitely get into that pct and then take a lot of time off cycling to recuperate. Your body will definitely need time to come back from that. 4-5 months(or longer) when you're ready to start again if your bw is good to go, make sure you have everything you need to protect yourself while on. HCG, an AI, Nolvadex, Clomid, and if you're using a 19-nor like Tren again, Caber or Prami just incase. After your PCT you should definitely get bw done to know where you're at in terms of damage if there is any.

Good luck! Cheers mate.

thanks man. I'm a little scared to be honest. I'm coming off. thanks for all of the input

[SuperNova93]

thanks man. I'm a little scared to be honest. I'm coming off. thanks for all of the input

Don't be scared. Being scared or anxious/nervous won't help. Just relax, what's done is done. now it's time to recover. Just be smarter next time. Patience is key mate. I have to learn that too lol.

[diesel101]

I have friends ask me what I'm taking every now and then and I of course tell them lots of protein and deny taking anything else. I personally take it as a compliment when someone ask me if I'm taking steroids.
If you're doing everything right it's eventually gonna be hard to hide the fact that your running gear.

As far as what your friends or other people think who gives a sh!t what they think.

If my boss ever came and questioned me about steroids I'd tell him to kiss my A$$.
Oh wait I am the boss forget that,bad advice.

[NACH3]

the cycle started with test only (cyp)
then I got crazy and added in tren ace, drol, halo, dbol
even shot a vial of deca which gave me sexual dysfunction so I stopped it (yes I know it stays in system for up to 18 months which scares the shit out of me)
I do not have hcg or estrogen blockers but can get them easily cheaply within a week which is what I am planning on doing.

Are you running any type of liver support?? I sure hope so... Also, it seems your getting BW - are you feeling lethargic tired low NRG... Coupled w/high BP your Hematocrit & E2 is most likely elevated... Donate as soon as you can imo - or go to a mobile blood drive & they'll test your hemoglobin(which multiplied by 3 gives your your hematocrit %.... GL and heed the advice given...

[kelkel]

I have friends ask me what I'm taking every now and then and I of course tell them lots of protein and deny taking anything else. I personally take it as a compliment when someone ask me if I'm taking steroids.
If you're doing everything right it's eventually gonna be hard to hide the fact that your running gear.

As far as what your friends or other people think who gives a sh!t what they think.

If my boss ever came and questioned me about steroids I'd tell him to kiss my A$$.
Oh wait I am the boss forget that,bad advice.

What's the old line, "If you're doing steroids and people don't know it, you're doing it wrong."