well just cause you experiment with a lot of gear doesn't mean your going to look jacked and huge.. a lot of the experiments I do are just learning experiences and testing things out on my own body . as a gym owner, trainer, and bodybuilding coach I'm not going to help clients run various compounds and stacks or drugs that I haven't first learned first hand about myself .
but I do the best with what I'm working with.. I've had 9 different surgeries , been bed ridden over a year, spent time in a wheel chair and then a walker. lost about 40 pounds of muscle through all that crap . I'm trying to make a come back though and get more size back.
this is my current shape post surgery post accidents .. I've gained most my weight back, but still need to add about 20 pounds over the next year or two.
5'9" , 230 pounds and lean is what I'm shooting for