This is my first cycle... and I'm absolutely loving it. In just over a month I've put on over 25lbs, had my confidence shoot up 500%, my aggression do the same and I f*ck like there's no tomorrow... probably because of the aggression and confidence. I'm 200% hooked on this shit, and even though I'm barely half-way through this cycle, I've already planned out (day-by-day) my next cycle and I'm already saving for it. Now that you have the slightest bit of background (check my log at the bottom of this post for a detailed cycle experience) on to my problem:
As I said, my aggression, size and strength are up further than I'd ever hoped. I have no problems and I'm even running slightly higher than normal doses. My only REAL problem: I can't NOT go to the gym! I hate weekends and tend to eat like shit, because if I'm not in the gym I get 'depressed.' I can hardly use the word depressed, because I have the feeling of well-being 24/7 but I get pissed and feel like a useless piece of sh*t when I'm not on a bench pressing, or under a bar squatting. I love lifting, resting, reading, DREAMING about weight... hell I wanna own a gym now, and am seriously considering professional bodybuilding... offa ONE cycle!
Anyway, up to this point most people are probably wondering what the hell do I want with this post. Truly, I want some kind of 'mindset' that you guys use to get you through your days out of the gym. I honestly love the pain. There'll be times when I self-inflict it like a pinch to feel something and make myself push through it (not wrist shit.. but yeah I've got problems) Bottom line: How do you tell yourself to stay calm, eat clean and get through the day if you have to rest and take a day off from the gym?? I went every day the past 10 days, and finally FORCED myself to stay home this weekend. I want to get the most out of this cycle, and I know rest is crucial. What do you think or tell yourselves??
FINALLY Updated! Vein-X's *DETAILED* Cycle Log