Hello everyone. I have not trained in almost 4 months. I competed for the first time in Nov 05 in figure (did well) and afterward I ate everything that didn't eat me first. Then in Dec I had implants which set me back 3 weeks. Quite honestly, it has been downhill eversince.
I have gained over 20 lbs since November. I recently cleaned up my diet however I am not able to complete 3 pushups! I am so ashamed of the weight I have gained, I dread the thought of going to the gym. People have called me and I give them a lame excuse why I am not working out.
My coworkers love the fact that I am not working out. They say I am happier but I am filled with disappointment on the inside. My husband and dogs still love me so I have that going for me. Any suggestions, advice would be appreciated beyond words.