Confessions of a wannabe bodybuilder

[Mike Dura]

Although I have a tragic sense of life, I've got a vision and an optimism.

First, as there's been changes in my personal life, and coming off test E and feeling all moody despondent, I've been looking back and feeling haunted by a series of bad choices that have put me in a less than ideal situation and I sense a bit of uncertainty about some of my current decisions. However, I do have a sense of "first things first" and I'm acting accordingly and I'm in good faith about that.

Yet, looking ahead, I'm excited that I have a plan and an enthusiasm about the future although there's much uncertainty in important domains of life. The most concrete vision I have is within bodybuilding. In the most immediate sense, training is the highlight of my day - it's my "bliss station" so I know it's valid because the pursuit of happiness is a fundamental principle, one worth living for and for me, a principle I can't do without. Everyone needs some form of a healthy escape and I'm fortuanate to have found bodybuilding - it's a life saver.

Unlike other areas of my life, I'm clear on what I want from bodybuilding. I know that I want more mass and I have a set of priorities to bring up lagging bodyparts - the typical ones, calves, hamstrings, back, upper chest, middle chest and overall mass in general. Calves are my highest priority. I'm more planned out this time around with respect to prioritizing excersises and pulling out "all the stops" in my shock treatment approach. I'm excited about creating a quality bodybuilder's physique and I know AAS is a major part of my agenda because the look I want is not natural.

Let's face it, bodybuilding is a radical sport and what's the fun of doing it unless you're going to be radical about it? I definately embrace the radical element of bodybuilding complete with it's risks. It's a risk to live at all! Bodybuilding is my sense of flow and it's a world that's within my complete control. I also feel fortunate that I have, in my view, a good aesthetic quality to my body and I feel I'd be remiss in not fully realizing that potential.

[LoLoutb0y]

you will succeed. you have the end in sight, a goal in mind, and with this you will accomplish whatever it is you want. i like to take 3x5 card and write down a goal for the week, or the month, or the cycle. pull out the card everyday, and focus on your goal, and get it done, wether it be 20xreps of this, or x weight of that, focus on want you want, and intensity to what you want, work for what you want, and it will be yours.

[Doc.Sust]

keep your eyes on the prize,it will pay off in the end

[bor]

very well said

[bor]

And there is nothing "wannabe" about your physique - you look awesome

[Mike Dura]

Thanks for the positive feedback.